The personal challenge becomes creating space for everyday's life as it happens. Space in the mind, emotional and physical space, as well as space in the red pumping machine. When this challenge is conquered and things start to work for u, life simply becomes better. question is do u want and to learn to cope with it.
Im glad i chose to waste time to attend the t4 ground breaking ceremony. Nothing spectacular but the event was quite well handled under the marquee which sheltered everyone from the torrential rain.
Went to be less anti social, like a crash-course reporter for a day, decided to communicate. Breaking out of the natural preference and inclination of not being kaypo, posed questions abt others' work. Even tho alr aware that every type of work has its own difficulties and challenges, jus decided to find out more, trying not to reinforce what i already know, but focus on debunking any assumptions.
Sat abit at the coffee shop again and observed the workers there carrying out their work. Even the toilet guardian who sits there all day long to collect 10cents for every entry. He jus glues his eyes to his smart phone 90% of the time, with occassional glances ard himself and the coins that are placed on his counter. The drink helpers are indeed quick with the mental sums and memorising the various types of beverages ordered and those behind the smoky hot pots and pans, throwing in ingredients and waving their ladles in and out of the kuali.
Caged birds watching. More like deciphering their chirping. What they talking abt? Why so chirpy and noisy when they all gather? Some uncles chat among themselves with the backgrd music, some uncles stare into blank space. I wish i can understand what the birds are talking abt.
An office worker who stayed late in the office, ended up slping under the table for the night and then scaring the poor cleaning aunty early the next morning.
A masseur who knows limited english was trying to convey her thots in single words and short phrases. Since the time she was interviewed for the job, her own preferences and her specialist knowledge on the pressure points, sharing the various types of customers, including 6-7 yr old kids?! Indeed, found out more with the keenness to find out. Even with the language obstacle.
As i read abt what happiest pple have or do at work, i suddenly recall my long lost plant in the coca cola glass. The green leafy plant had disappeared without me noticing until at least mths later. Unbelievable. Poor plant. I hope u have found a better owner.
Witnessed another set of well done slides, unveiling the events systematically n logically, convincingly without questions from the audience, all engaged and listened attentively as the presenter reveals what was initially not known. It is a skill to master, and i shld really put my heart and determination to it, instead of doubting what am i doing this for. It may be meaningless as the rqm has become passe, but it is the innate perseverance that shldnt be killed due to time constraint as the consequence is affecting well being. No passion, not doing for oneself, it is game over. Time jus passes without joy and purpose.
It is difficult, it is something i dont know how to do, and i have the "sigh, give up" mentality. Instead of the contrast of "if others can do it, i can do it too". Recently ive been tagging the latter with "but do for wat". Crisis. Or maybe i was really jus avoiding, cos i dont know how to do it. When was the last time, i said i dont know how to do. What is wrong to say that. Ego? Can i be taught how to do it? Isnt it great to have a senpai to rely on, life will prolly be easier than trying to handle everything alone.
Witnessed the courage of owning up, on the spot, after jus a pause. The moment is wordless. Admirable virtue.
自転車をするが大好きです。私に空間を提供しますから。
ice skating mo. Demo, koko no ice skating rink wa chisaii desu. I shld prolly find on my next quest, a big frozen lake overseas and skate the entire day. First i shld finish up italy's research. Taihen da.
