really numb. total feel-less. how was paper? really dunno how to ans anymore. maybe it's the effect of being a last yr student or the aftermath of sep-ing. dfma cant finish...crazy one table alr got problem still must do another re-design table. i really wonder who can finish that. carol so nice..hand copied out 2 sheets of paper for me leh! she gave me be4 we entered the hall. qn 4 easy really like MI = mathematical induction, u know those kind of copy the steps exactly just change the values. BUT my calculator refused to work. new batt leh. was ok the night be4 leh. sigh..no sub ans.. no final ans. i just wrote down "*calculator not working" at the end of the page. cos by the time i finished writing all the steps and was abt to raise hand to ask for cal from the invigilators, left abt 7 min. forget it.by the time the lecturer walk to my desk then to the front table then back..time's up or maybe there's no extra calculator for me also. i shall continue with the first qn which i also din calculate out, just write steps.
today's jap lt 11. oooo got the big table. screwed on. so good. be4 tat i was still thinking LT also nvm cos only need a pen. no calculator or rough paper or open book. but big table still more shuang. the screws and snap fits are replaced by katakana and particles floating in my head. really had enuff leh...now i see jap i feel like puking. BUT still got jlpt4 on sun..sianz la..dun care i shant look at any studying materials today le. jap is no longer easy lo.
past few days lucky got gd frens to study with. so gd lo...everyday study in the classroom tog. fun. all the gossips among the proper discussions on the modules.and from merv's blog-mayday song: 是你 爱你让我变的更强 为你战斗永不投降 让我照顾你 我要让雨停出太阳. it's hard not to worry but think everyone's doing great in hanging in there to conquer all obstacles ahead. in times like this, it's effective when da4 jia1 hu4 xiang1 fu2 chi2 (when everyone help one another, but the chinese phrase somehow speaks more).
this song is just superb. esp the electric guitar or rather the whole band la. not to mention the lyrics. some fav extracts...
When I was a young boy my father took me into the city
to see a marching band
He said 'Son when you grow up, would you be, the saviour of the broken, the beaten and the damned?'
He said 'Will you, defeat them, your demons, and all the non-believers, the plans that they have made?
Because one day I'll leave you a phantom to lead you in the summer to join the Black Parade.'
The under world is waiting.
our romance sends you realing from decimated dreams.
Your misery and hate will kill us all!
So paint it black and take it back
And let's shout out loud and clear!
Defy unto the end we hear the call...
On and on we carry through the fears
Disappointed faces of your peers
Take a look at me
Cause I could not care at all
Do or die
You'll never make me
Because the world,
will never take my heart.
And though they try
They'll never break me
They want it all
They wanna break this bone.
I won't explain
Or say I'm sorry
I'm not ashamed
I'm gonna show my scar
Give a cheer
For all the broken
Listen here!
I'm just a man,
I'm not a hero
Just a boy
who had to sing this song
I'm just a man
I'm not a hero
I don't care
