yes, it will always be on my mind every morning. work or rather this job is totally no fun and tat's becos it's totally disorganised and yet i cant do anything to it, it's beyond my pay level.
thanks my contractor for helping today. they've been kind. but this kindness does not apply everywhere.somehow some are genuinely kind, some are just behind a mask to rope u into smth which u cant get out of it later, some just forgot the feeling of "just starting" on the job, some are only kind at times, some mood swings, some nonchalant, some sighz. and this is called group dynamics. tat's why seldom ur colleague will be your fren. seriously it'll just be at the colleague level. one wk 5 days, 1 day 10 hrs and tat's enuff, no more than tat.
thus i must thank my ex colleagues esp da jie, david and sy for entertaining me at times and of cos my uni pple with the proj G. without all of u all office life is totally below zero degree celcius.
some days can be atrocious, some days can be quiet and some totally frenly. despite the personality reports saying tat i'm a people oriented person, somehow i dun agree. i'd prefer to sit at a desk and work, only communication is email, time's up go home. i hate to liaise with pple, listen in meetings, doing negotiations and discussions and seeing how pple shoot and siam arrows. not to mention pple losing their cool and snapping back at colleagues and then becos there may be future dealings, apologise unwillingly and insincerely after a few hrs or few days.
pple like to ask me hows work and why u look so stressed. closer ones i'll say or rather complain sianz la, wat else..why sianz? not fun to work..and if u ask somemore, i wont be able to answer. as i've said before it's a whole package thing. and for acquaintances, still trying to pick up most of the things lor..still swimming abt. haha, try to luff it off and hoping to change subject. and they'll say dun worry la, slowly can pick up, slowly la. tat's becos u are still new wat. most imptly is to work happily. yes i agree but it's not the reality.
