Today's a pale green wall. Violin. A stalk of carnation.
And when i open my eyes. The pple standing around are gone. Gotten off the previous stop.
Neutral picture.
Have been really lazy. Physically. Not mentally. Instead think my brain has been working harder than the rest. Got to distribute the workload with the entire body well.
Interesting chat with pple. Nv met a more positive teacher than him yet. But i do not disagree with he said. Skilfully managed actually. But sometimes how one portray oneself can be very different from what one is. The outer and inner selfs are 2 individuals. Slight correlation maybe but largely different. Mine shld be relatively the same. Thus it is also why im still sceptical about having implicit and explicit goals. Recalled back old times if i did have 2 different set of goals. From the various activists and the different types of pple i've met. Goals are not really hidden. All the intent can be spoken. Even instilling confidence. If the intent is gd, they can be explicit. Unless when u are tryin to stay far away from some irritating person, ur actions may be a result of such implicit goal. Otherwise u will jus smile and minimise contact. Anyway it is subjective, depends on the extent, even negative implicit goal can become explicit. Tats just being straightforward.
And finally transferred the workload from the brain to the legs. Sitting upright on the bicycle seat, letting ur arms fall limply at the sides. All focus is on keeping the symbiotic pair on the few cm-wide white divider line drawn on the tarmac. Realise that 100% focus cant keep u 100% on the line too. The mind is finally blank, with eyes jus straight ahead. The legs got to keep pedaling.
