Amazing cheap thrill in looking forward to first, the toto, then the cny singapore sweep. All hoping that we dun haf to report to work anymore.
I never believe in such windfall. And even if i agree to: if u buy, u may get a chance, if u dont, no chance at all, somehow the logic doesnt sink into my head. Im actually prepared to lose the chance. Processed info to be the probability is jus too low. And even if i get a winning number and i dun buy, i am prepared not to gain. Deep inside, it is ok to let go of this winning, it doesnt really hurt. Thus it amazes me that greed is one of the 7 human sins, how to get one to be totally engrossed in that... they nv reach the status of being contented. But isnt it good enuff that u arent losing anything? Even if one takes risk in this, it is really jus for fun, alr prepared to lose those so called investment, pure luck leh, no strategy at all, no trending study and analysis. The easiest investment of all.
Dad stared at me when i sulked...haha... didnt expect me to do that cos im no believer. I was jus gathering all the troubled feelings from everywhere else and sulked in a long, draggy tone. instead of shouting at the open sea or the cliffs or screaming into the pillow. It's always nice to do that once in while. Letting go of the steam trapped, not anger, jus some negative bottled up feelings.
Dad can still joke abt it. Before i checked, he acted as if he is talking to the manager, shhh not saying the nickname we gave him here, but who has kindly visited and follow up with calls to chk on his condition la. "mr manager, u can take my place tmr, try falling, then u will be able to get first hand information to the questions u posed". Then he cover my phone, demanded that i tell him how much i giving him if i win. Haha obviously his good filial daughter passed the test, said it without hesitation. And after i checked the results, he acted as the manager "mr lim, u come back to work tmr immediately, short of manpower". Dad obediently said softly "yes sir". Sad life. But anyway he says his hobby is doing work for the company, n then pple will ask him if he has hit his head during the fall.
I got a shock when he said he bought 100 pieces before, cost him 1 dollar each last time. N all in running numbers! I was totally convinced that he definitely hit his head previously. Did he win any? Not at all. Wat a waste. Then he say his frens all buy 4D all super big one....really nowhere else to spend the money?!
When will we ever get such winnings n then we can drop everything here n disappear from this world ? realistically, migrating for us. there r pple who always remain so hopeful and thats why sp will make so much money...well, it always remains a mystery.
