The pretty evening sky was the last i saw a week ago. The vastness of the sky always gives me a sense of freedom and yet ironically the unspoken sense of protection sheltering from whatever is happening all around. Really doesnt look like sg, cos of the bald tree and overhead cables, but it is.
The rest of the week, covered in smoke or ashes, burnt bark and chlorophyll. Dusty. From experience, I'm taking precaution against sore throat and headaches by actually doing nothing much except to reduce activity level and drinking more water. so far so good. mild ones, never hit the "ache" level, just slight discomfort.
Sgporeans just got caught into frenzy purchasing of masks and air purifiers. Are they effective? shrugs. Prolly just psychological comfort from the self-psychoed protection against blackened lungs. When in crisis, there can be opportunities. The natural ones are amazing. The created ones are just irritating. too many chefs spoil the broth theory aka kiang tio hou mai geh kiang theory. and Profiteering urgh.
And so amazingly at this age, am still witnessing this in a set-up experiential learning environment. Some got past it, some just remain trapped in it. Is one fighting to perform and outshine or is one sincerely stepping up to fix the issues. The former is wayang and the latter is the save-the-day angel. not a hero.
The course at the occ was boring for the first 3 days. Obviously only the fun stuff interest me. leaving us time to self-reflect isnt. yes the others may need it, so i felt totally imprisoned there cos i can do it anywhere else right? but as usual, when forced to do smth, since i'm already spending time there, i shld try to minimise the wastage and make the best of it. again thanks the aes guys for being so entertaining. i wonder if the Js are irritated, cos suppose to be serious, but they arent and instead, disruptive. hilarious. As a P, i was totally having fun watching them. i thank them for the free performances. very fun loving peeps. and all the hokkien theories and rhymes. They psycho-ed all of us with the mbti throughout the entire course, the whole group was totally brainwashed. really interesting for the first time, but not the second for me already. my interest is really only aroused by novelty. ok la, pple become more tolerant with each other. more understanding on why pple behave like tat, so if it is for a good cause, let's get brainwashed then. the con obviously is using it as excuse. one shld strive to work on being a balanced being, so how can i be more ISFJ?
The sgporean facilitator can really click with us better on the 4th day. All our debriefs are all singlish when we can express ourselves better as compared to the first 3 days since the facilitators are english and aussie.
bits n pieces. objective of task: complete the challenge and be the team who makes the most money. 4 grps each, was given a puzzle template with the loose pieces to fill into the template and 1,100 each. played many of these before. obviously have to think out of the box, why are still others who fall into the trap, the facilitators must be satisfied that it is going according their way. pple are hiding their puzzle resources, and it becomes like a virus, one hide, others also start hiding. it is definitely not the challenge. u can only sell not spend, to get the most money. but i believe everyone isnt stupid either, that means the bank will be stuck, not decreasing but not increasing either. to my surprise one grp was busy selling...dotzz....then the other grp obviously very happy cos they got their share. n when i read the objective again, the most logical thing to do obviously was to combine into one team and pool all the money, heck care abt the puzzle pieces. but the richest grp outright reject me! i was hurt. haha no la. i jus acted hurt. but no impact. crap.
ha, i have zero allies there. depended on a commercial grpmate to gain the alliance of the other grp who then refuses to take in the losing grp when they manage to come to their senses. 30 more sec, the last moment to 4 combine in 1, but my grpmates are already rejecting them. haha still got the mentality to win, when there is really no need to. what is there to win, and so what if we win? innate human instincts? terrible. sgporeans are mostly STJs. it is just a culture. moulded. lack of trust is why did the team reject the alliance, but it is a game leh, what can they lose? they say Im very NT, logical pple cannot understand the other side. and i couldnt understand why the poorest grp keep buying.... their explanation sounds totally contradicting to me, aiya anyway dont need to find the root cause, ok lor, accept with a question mark. internal conflicts are stupid.
next the pebbles. divided into 2 grps. and i was arrowed! urgh...i seriously dont want to lead this task, cos i know is gg to be difficult. i keep asking them to use this chance to play, cos i seriously play similar ones before. but to no avail. and i got a ENFP partner. great. the task is super S. dead with all the steps and details. he totally gives up and i have to do the shit, he was apologetic afterwards. dreadful. the facilitators are having easy jobsss..... wanted to combine the 2 grps quickly so that the other leaders can do it, but realise mus still help each other cos it was still in chaos. and just when everyone finally decided to take the leap of faith, the class did perfect. amazing. seriously the success factor to me is peer coaching. i must really take the hats off the aes leaders, the instructions are commanded beautifully. concise. tho there are some who just cant get it. and there are psychomotor in the dynamics. stand up and move forward on your own. the leaders also dont need to be a mother hen, cos all these pple have the survival instincts. they just need to align the outcomes. pple just know how to reach there. hurray to the P style.
finally the roller coaster building. 60min. sounds super long to me. can we just use 20min and rest for the rest of the time. haha typical lazy and impatient me. i'm aware of cos, just want to observe patiently, but got asked jus cos i was an engineer. was. was. some alr know me when i was in engr. i jus say i think easiest to do A frame, but up to u all la. and after that i became "boss" dotz...cant they jus let me slack...reliance is bad. i only got the concept, exactly how to build in the end depends on the S's pple. very amazing with the details they raised and fine-tuned. i had to push the credits to them during debrief. the entire structure was built by everyone, using both brains and limbs. didnt know the leader felt totally neglected till she mentioned. but i mentioned that it is commendable for the leaders to be able to let go and tapping on subject matter expert. although, obviously she was very helpless. but seriously, the leader did a great job in bridging the gap, cos the 4 grps are building different sections of the roller coaster track so with their integration, we can autopilot to achieve the outcome. so hard to balance betw letting pple freeplay versus not to be seen as leaving them in the lurch like not contributing at all.
the light bulb for me is the weakest link at the roller coaster track. the pple working on it (inside pple) are so caught up and desperately trying to stabilise it, while those watching them (outside pple) were thinking why are they taking so long, just let go and it will be stabilised, dun need to perfect it when they are not perfecting at all, really just cant free-stand on its own. and got 2 crazy guys still sparring with the poles...hahaha omg like kids...but looks really fun. while pple are hard at work, they are just entertaining themselves, plus me. but they arent wrong la, too many hands there may just make things worst. this gap betw the inside and outside pple cause huge misunderstanding. how many times had been like tat. when you are too engrossed in smth, be it inside or outside, u get trapped and only frustration build up within yourself. step in and out of situations for fresh views.
whoa i really cant tahan super J pple. too structured. i think when i m J, esp at the last min, i also still haf alot of room to move, theirs totally zero space. just execute step by step. the marshmallow experiment proves that it is a fallacy to believe in fail to plan, plan to fail. this is also from the pmp. think it will be a fun debate to watch. i had to be abit J cos i really dont like to overwork myself at the last min. Ps love last min adrenaline rush but not overwhelmed by the workload, seriously, if we can slack, we will just slack...haha so fun to be with so many Ps. the grp dynamics have more Is and Ps.
and finally we got to end it with peer feedback. the blindspot, if real, for me is being observant. im totally not leh, how many times i've been chided for not being aware of surroundings. they gave egs of wat i said and commented. oh ok lor. and i got persistent, the can-do spirit, logical and rise up to situations when i have to fdback as well. why pple dont like to give negative ones, i'm more interested to hear those, but guess we arent close enuff to give each other the -ve ones.
the concept of teaching person how to fish, instead of giving the fish. sometimes not purposely keep the answer to oneself, it is jus training the person to think for himself. but yea, pple have the tendency to answer when you are asked. once the person learn how to fish and he can teach others, the skill set will just spread like a virus, and then it will be super effective, instead of relying on one person/subject matter expert to do the job. the willingness to achieve this is the first step to start with. the attitude. and instead of focusing on handling bosses, they shld think of how to become a good boss/colleague in the workplace, shldnt tat be the objective? i think pple in general are too caught up with what they cant control, esp the bosses. as if you can control ur husband or wife? still some distance to move the entire grp up to the next lvl. the next org culture.
had thought that posting pictures of oneself is wat the schkids do. lets get out of comfort zone and doing smth against preference sometimes.
