flashing back on the dreaded week to cram all the theories in the pmbok guide into my head. the motivation trigger to sit for this was prolly from the movie pursuit of happyness and some other contributing factors. i still congratulate myself in going thru this. seriously very trivial, but there is so much inertia in me to do it such that it became such a big deal. just pure suffering...imprisonment...void of happiness and freedom and space...coercing myself...oh man....terrible torturous feeling. really wonder why i detest exams so much and yet able to go thru the 18 years of horrible sg curriculum.
I am proud of being so disciplined. Knocked off earlier than usual to cram at night, had to stand up from the seat, without finishing the work and just leave. i wish i have the discipline throughout the year really. Pulling my focus back multiple times within that few hours before bed time, abandoning those -ve thoughts, struggled with getting the facts in. Really understanding alone is not enough. 42 processes, each with their inputs, tools and techniques and outputs. Just getting it is not gg to give me a passing grade if the questions are not on concepts but facts. GG. I really dont want to retake or give up the cert. pushing on....with encouragement from frens which bring me oasis moments and smiles.
I prohibit myself to go cycling , which i totally regretted cos i cant do that now, cos of the haze. and finally on 10 jun, the fateful day when i had to sit in front of the comp for 4 hours. urgh i was determined to finish it in 2.5 hrs but i couldnt. super difficult. all facts. i had to dig into my memory cells' mitochondria. was wavering throughout, uncertain of the answers, keep changing them. Tat's it. 5 min before time's up, i told myself tat too bad, i had alr tried my best with the best and most logical answers. and u know the trick of if you dont know the answer, just put C, as stats show in mcq, most answers are Cs. But i couldnt take the bet. End test. The 5min long suspense didnt suffocate me. just patiently waiting for the software application to load and calculate the scores i suppose. The questions are not of equal weightage and there are 25 dummy qns out of the 200 qns. Crossing fingers, half expecting to see the disastrous word, but phew i was really lucky. Passed. yay!! freedom at last! I feel that i can conquer any other battles after this.
Got to attend a performance at the esplanade to support my cute cousin who had a part in. and got a taste of the sg arts festival spirit. you can only feel it at the esplanade, or maybe i had not roamed abt other spots. the performance was abt 2 hours long. it was alright. I love the lady who did the musical play-like songs, sugoi, humorous and so melodious. crystal clear voice. and of cos was mesmerized by the electric guitar performance. such a great invented piece of instrument. the artiste was also amazing to play it in a different way. a very cool chap. These 2 are most outstanding to me. then the last one, special performance was my cousin's. in new paper, the one at the back. she can really dance quite well...got the guts to shake a lot. We all thot she is better than the other gal cos of the more daring and distinct movements. well done kiddo.
