Sunday, October 27, 2013

Sabbath 2013

Sometimes do u feel distracted and out of character, no wind in ur sails, all stagnant in the still air? this happens to be the time when u find yourself in a bubble, shutting out the rest of the surrounding and u discover silence and placidity, probably virtually. Then when u look at the watch, the hour hand has moved over quite a distance.

The simple power of kindness and comprehension from the pple ard u indeed dilutes the harshness of the environment, which forces u to go with the flow of life. And then u asked what's life?

Recently, have been having vocabulary crisis. The basic japanese and even english and mandarin, somehow loss of words. No words could convey the meaning of my thots accurately. And then when i squeeze some random ones out after an uncomfortable pause, i instantly question if i have used the words correctly. Felt checkmate. Handicap. Urgh, i need more practise. Have suspected that my brain isnt working too well lately. Cant keep up with my own expectation. What is going on? Is my brain deteriorating? I reminded myself to slow down and to avoid multitasking as well as memorising. To offload these info, i created chklists. Dear brain, stay strong and sane.

Not worrying, would be unnecessary. Jus hope that i can manage the thots and actions better. Then that would life enjoyment with control instead of being all messed up.

The gorgeous horizon with the vast sky and sea are a feast to the eyes. The clouds with the reflected sunlight create the most beautiful thing u would see on earth. I sat there and wonder why this can be formed, a visual therapy. Finally tried the starcruise, virgo to phuket and langkawi for 3 nights. exploring the ship, having no plans for the next activity and no time constraint at all is a luxurious feeling. I was really trying to get bored so that i will cherish the bustling city life more, instead of taking it for granted and detesting it all the time. Was hoping to develop boredom with doing nothing.

It started raining on one of the nights till the morning. The sea was choppy. Couldnt even walk straight along the claustrophobic corridor with the cabins lined along both sides. We had to take the ginger pills to prevent getting sea sick. They r prevention not cure, thus after the china trip, i am really not keen to endure till i kenna giddy spells, it would feel horrible. I watched the dark grey water as the big ship sailed. The water surface was "ripplified". Is there such a word? The waves arent obvious until my window passed them. U will see the trough, a depression on the water surface, surprisingly deep, like a big fruit bowl. Then u realise the waves are quite high. the top part of the wave came crashing down onto the sides of the ship. As the pointy part of the hull cuts through the waves, white masses formed against the grey. They look like thick liquid, with many layers, flowing away from the ship, whitening the grey rippled water. Then there are many stubborn white droplets that refuse to flow with the rest, jumping high up to my window before joining the rest. We bobbled on such powerful liquid mass for a while, i dont recall how long ive stayed in that state admiring nature.

When the sea is calmer, i read. One of the few times when i managed to read alot more pages than those before bedtime. We went to the restaurants to fill our stomachs, most pple chat. They jus chill in the uber cold restaurants, we will take the non aircon seats as much as possible. They chill by the pool too, in cafes etc. The draft was unbearable. Brrrrr.....why is the temp so low? It is amazing at how these 4 days pass by so quickly. Time really jus ... is there a word faster than flies?

And now the lucky winner of the trip sponsored by st and samsung would be happily seated in the vip box for the barcelona vs real madrid match before returning to sg tmr. He still has to blog for them, i wonder how are they gg to do it. Thats where the difference is betw writing leisuring for ur own records vs writing for submission. He is supposed to blog using the samsung gear and note3. Honestly can give up on the gear, too small screen. Hope he is enjoying his time there! Pls dont go zara shopping. Shld help to retrieve my lost photos from the incomplete church and the colourful hilltop with works of gaudi. Can no longer rmb the spanish names of the places.

Thursday, October 24, 2013

Rhythm of love by plainwhitets

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JWiwuiT58Yc&feature=youtube_gdata_player

My head is stuck in the clouds
She begs me to come down
Says "Boy quit foolin' around"

I told her "I love the view from up here
The warm sun and wind in my ear
We'll watch the world from above
As it turns to the rhythm of love"

We may only have tonight
But till the morning sun you're mine all mine
Play the Music low and sway to the rhythm of love

My heart beats like a drum
A guitar string to the strum
A beautiful song to be sung

She's got blue eyes deep like the sea
That roll back when she's laughing at me
She rises up like the tide
The moment her lips meet mine

We may only have tonight
But till the morning sun you're mine all mine
Play the Music low and sway to the rhythm of love

When the moon is low
We can dance in slow motion
And all your tears will subside
All your tears will dry

And long after I've gone
You'll still be humming along
And I will keep you in my mind
The way you make love so fine

We may only have tonight
But till the morning sun you're mine, all mine
Play the music low and sway to the rhythm of love 2x
Yeah sway to the rhythm of love

Sunday, October 20, 2013

Unbelievable luck

Contest craze fan finally reaping some results from the seeds sown. Unbelievable perseverence. Congrats to merv for earning a trip to barca, a note3 and the samsung gear. Got to write some blog entries which will appear alien to me, i guess i forgot all the "knowledge" picked up during the world cup fever. Really chiong down to support already, actually lucky was late. Wont be too gian to be in the room filled with shutters and flashes even if i were early.

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

The bigger events in the wkend

On the same day - bro's bday and fren's wedding.

Bday celeb @ tao's

Wedding at chjimes and carlton

 

Public holiday - hari raya haji

Woken up by bro for bfast. Wanted to skip but no, pulled myself out. Wake up for bfast with the company of bro and mum. How many days per wk can i achieve this?
really grateful for a public holiday in the middle of the wk.

I was introduced to Isochronic tones. :) Interesting. First try for its effectiveness last night. Tired and slpy but was pondering over something amiss. Jus not the right arrangement. Something is wrong but what exactly is it? How to avoid and resolve. So i played the alpha wave. When i finally decided to stop thinking and to get into slp, i cant. I got to reach for my phone to change it to the theta wave. Din realise when i actually enter dreamland.

Somewhere in the middle of the night, i got up to switch off the music with one eye close and one eye half open. 4+Am. thunderstorm. Can hear the heavy rain pitterpattering against the glass window. And i dozed off back in the sound of the rain. Had terrible nightmare, not sure if it was before 4+ or after. I recalled this pair of thumb and index finger holding onto a feeler of a cockroach right in front of my eye. I closed my eye tightly and tried dodging but the fingers persisted at the same location. Urgh. Stressed. I woke up with shoulders all cramped.

Tried the alpha waves a second time when doing my europe trip planning this morning. Gave up for lunch. Shagged. I guess the end is wat gives the sense of achievement, the process of it is torturous. But if i dont do it today, i dun have any other time left before the prices start going up. Plus i dont want to be nagged by bros and cousin. Finished my part first so i got the choice to nag them instead.

Read the article which shares similar sentiments with me. If the most ordinary things are what makes u happy, u will be happy most of the time. But if only big events such as trips and parties make u happy, then u will only be happy for a few times in a yr. Im lucky to be the former. Jus happy to laze ard, read articles, sip tea, chat and jus stone. Cycle by the beach is easily achievable too. Tho trips, less the planning part, make me happy to explore new things

Went on 2 wheels after dad left for work. Jus nice for sunset. Sunset at east coast is definitely comparable to sunset at angkor wat. The hews in the sky jus left me bewildered at how beautiful nature is. and really like to watch the plane fly towards me, makes a turn and then heads into the horizon away from the sg land, as if embarking on a journey to a fantastic destination...the transience in life

Friday, October 04, 2013

The ceiling needs a ceilingpaper

I stare up at the ceiling, and my brain stops working.