Motivators, views and thoughts and choices in life

Went to millionaire mind intensive, introduced by a fren who said it was life changing for him. I guess it depends on how u view it. I do not disagree they kinda use herd mentality which seem like "brain washing", but then it also depends on how open minded u are to what you r hearing and receiving. You derive ur own takeaways right? The speakers are great, really, real toastmasters, engaging, i bet they study psychology. Great stories, enthusiastic and has high energy level. I agree with some of the stuff they said, really should work on my energy level, dont need to view everything as sianz. I guess i used to be more positive and motivated, when in sch prolly. How you do anything is how u do everything, to a certain extent i agree. Abit off expectation, as i do not have any "wrong" views or beliefs about money management, in fact, they assured me that im on the right track. N haha should benefit merv more but well he has his reasons on how he manages money now too. There is one thing i prolly would try out, really manage it, to me sounds v ma fan, v painful, do u need to be so organised ? So meticulously manage the accounts? Yea get out of comfort zone. And get out of how u were taught since young. Others' views in relation to money may not be urs. Anyway couldnt last the 3 days bootcamp. I thot i shld train my own discipline but really, nvm, it is a choice, and i stood by my choice. Haha i can justify my own actions, yea yea i dont need to. But i always justify. So merv wasted 500 bucks for the 2 nights at hard rock singapore for the event which he thot we had to last from 9am to 11 pm for the first 2 days and then 8am to 8pm on the last day. No. We were kinda erm far from it, but i've flipped thru the workbook and i think i can miss the other experiences such as attempting to burn our 100 dollar note after chanting "i rule money, money doesnt rule me". The title of the task is also the test of attachment to money. We were supposed to write down our emotions and thots first, after vivid instructions were given, made us visualise what we are gg to do next. Thus i said they r great speakers. I wrote, siao ah....yea i rule money, i dont burn money. I would rather give it away. N i thot what could be the possible actions, sure got pple like me, there would be pple who are psycho-ed, burn burn lor, i can make more. There will also be pple who are not sure, they prolly monkey see monkey do, jus follow the majority, if others burn i will burn. There will be pple who super unwilling and will take damn long to part with their money, like jus indecisive, stand there and waste time, deciding forever. I visualised all these potential choices in my head before i single out the one that it makes more sense. 

Went to the halloween horror night 5 at USS. Second time there, got to accom merv for a first time experience. It is really not worth to go more than once. I mean not that their themes werent good. Infact, they are superb, first class, for the props, the effects, the make ups, all super professional. Not to mention all their professionalism in their job. Really hats off. 55 bucks for queueing. No way. We walked past the first one, blk 50, cos queue time was 100min. The second one says 40min, ok we joined the queue and merv said "ur fav activity" sarcastically of cos. I rolled my eyes. Ya man, i nv have the patience to queue, id rather not play or eat. N then the most imba one 2.5hrs seriously of queue time to the singapore true ghost story on the mrt. 4d leh....coolness with the drizzle and the strong wind as if thru the tunnel. Really u need to scream, to encourage the poor hardworking crew who acted as ghosts. Not like say hello to them. I jus screamed when there r sudden appearances. And seriously im surprised at one who touched me. Her hand was cold, i looked at her and screamed. For a second, i thot, is this the crew or a real ghost. Are they supposed to touch pple? I doubt so. So yea remind me to give up my USS family tix, im really nt gg to queue, tho pple keep telling me the queue wont be as long....really mehhhhh

And yes cag ceo is really good, smart, can connect with pple, say sensible things, and surprised us at how much he knows the ground. Kudos. Totally resonate with the moonshot theory, how well said. Then it is also our learning fest, they got the ceo of banyan tree over for a key note. Well said again, can totally relate with his logic and his thots. He generously shared his experiences and stories. Agree to see problems as opportunities for innovation. Positive thinking and always challenging the situation, sounds exciting and motivating. This is where my interest is. Not tell me cannot do this cannot do that. This reminds of tortoise who says cannot pass around different speakers in a presentation?! Wa lau since when. Damn stupid jus one person's preference, want to impose on everyone else? Rubbish. impose stupid constraints unnecessarily. Win liao. And yea i thot my colleagues ask quite good qns during the qna for his views on game changers in the external environment or industries by coys such as uber and airbnb and also the sustainability of the biz, and of cos impressed by ceo again with his qns, really use the chance to tap pn his views, damn cool, abt the tourism air in sg as compared to other countries since he is so well travelled. Cant rmb the other qn alr. He asked these 2 while i was thinking, if i were to ask, what would i ask, i cant think of any.

Oh yes another good point he mentioned too, the concept of being the best in its own industry or trade, really, every market, every situation, every category has its best piece, best pawn, best soldier. 

One will nv reach its peak. There will always be space to grow, opportunities to look for, nv saturated.

So yea recently, i feel that i become more stupid, or is the brain slower? Dunno why....

I prolly will be more stupid if i hadnt travel this much. Travel is really the best thing in life. It is where u see and learn the most. U think u have the best idea but when u travel, the idea is already so common elsewhere. 

I changed.....

The attached is the proof. While packing, came across all the letters i kept. Whoa i was most mild tempered person leh....what has become of me....boo hoo. Why did i allow the environment to change me. Hate the environment but no pt blaming the environment right and i shldnt. I only have myself to blame for not shielding. A struggle. Time to change back....how to....need to be conscious all the time....why do i let pple or other things affect me so easily. Need to practise zen.