Sunday, February 28, 2016
Friday, February 19, 2016
Sunday, February 14, 2016
Thursday, February 11, 2016
Farewell er gu zhang...
Harpz, my eulogy for gu zhang. He has always been our one and only kind and softspoken gu zhang who never fails to ask us to help ourselves with drinks during cny at his place. And we will make hot milo for him at our place. We will miss him physically but spiritually he always live in our hearts, alive. While i tear, i do not want to show him my grief. He has lived a ripe old age, tho not super ripe but i guess it is quite a good age alr. He is also blessed with er gu as wife who lead a simple and honest life together with him and also harpoon as daughter who is filial to him. Im also grateful that he didnt suffer much as 生老病死 is inevitable, fortunate that he can skip the most of the 病 part. And he left peacefully with his loved ones by his side. It is good karma for him. Wish that he rest in peace with no worries and watch over harpoon and er gu for safety and smooth sailing years ahead.
We r family and will be there for harpz and er gu. Take care of yourselves. Luv u all.
Monday, February 08, 2016
Thots over the eve and the first day of the LNY 2016
Im a natural results oriented person. But when i think back what are my greatest achievements or the few ones that i feel positive abt and bothered to even rmb it, i realised the result is jus a by product and i derived my greatest sense of achievement and pride and gratitude from the process. The building up of bgss unit, the moment when i decided to leave dsta, the times when pple thank me for my actions and the benefits they reap from them.
Greatest lesson and turning pt is the time when my parents divorced and my dearest grandma left the world. I have lived with no regrets when i started to place family above fun and convenience and when i realise that for some pple, ur presence counts even if i will not or did not do much to contribute to undo unhappy encounters.
Did an interesting card game. What i like vs what i think i do well. Overlap is supposed to be relevant skills. The red ones.
I need to remove my time constraints and i need to grow and contribute back. I need fulfil these needs in order not to live with regrets. What have i learnt. Read in btw the lines? More goal oriented? Spending time on unnec things, or things that do not matter to me like slides and taking grp photo. Wayang vs doing sincerely. These r double edged. Can be good and bad. U need to plan ahead, for others, create opportunities. U need to serve customers' customers, not jus the customers. Teamwork is even more impt than i thot, sense of belonging too.without this:- If the result is positive, im expecting it to be, if negative, i will jus shrug it off, what have we been doing, in the end also like tat. V negative.
My sense of responsbility used to make me less lepak. But that is depleting, if i can not do them, even i know i shld be, i am creating distance frm myself so that i dun need to do it. Tats skiving. The drive is lost. I need to search for it back.
Actually when i was told that im seeking for other forms of gratification cos ive attained a comfortable lvl of gold. I beg to differ. Im still in debt. I wish i can be debt free and able to give more but i cant cos i have limited resources. But then this is again the result. If i have to suffer in unhappiness and live these years with regret, jus for that bag of gold, id rather put a stop to it. Now. Yes i wont starve, so yes ive the option to let go some gold. If i were to starve, will i let go seeking for other forms of gratification? Probably i will. Shrugs, some will not bow down to lowly means of getting gold, i wont consider my situation as lowly means. Like im not stealing, i jus need to sacrifice for food, for pple ard me whom i need to feed. Im lucky not to get into this stage. So i still have a choice. I shld be and will be making wise choices using the education im provided for and some intelligence that im lucky to have.
Im building on having more positive relationships, to influence and touch more hearts positively, allowing them to make changes to their lives for a better one at present or in future, regardless of the past. I want to build the ability to articulate, to tell stories. To help as many as i can. In this way, the types of help to be rendered can vary, not jus monetary, which is usually the most difficult to give. I also need to be more adaptable and patience with pple.
Monday, February 01, 2016
The wkend before LNY
Quick lunch with whatever leftovers in the fridge. Porridge via the pot now instead of the rice cooker. Anyway i will still try the rice cooker again next time.. The first attempt was too dry.
Then we started wrapping ang baos, first year to give out. Queued up for quite long at the banks. Seriously, banks are like hospitals, really horrible.. Waste time waiting. Then we decided to do a survey and get free gold class movie tix, incentivised.
Then had to have cough jus before lny, taken one day mc tho doc prescribed 2 days. I still work on my laptop at home for awhile on monday. Bored actually. I really cant be bored, abit restless. Actually im fortunate that i dont need to pretend to be busy at work. I mean it doesnt appear in my dictionary but yea have heard how pple had to, can imagine. I wish that my office has better views, i prefer my workplace at home.
Displayed it finally, cos it shouldnt be kept in the box. The con - need to wipe off the dust collected on it occassionally. Saber gives me the power, and spirit to fight for herself and her master is awesome.
Fixed the jigsaw bought from taiwan some time back also. I think it is a great modification to the normal paper based jigsaw. This is plastic and wont tear even if u keep breaking and fixing it. It can connect up one after another too, make pple buy more to get full set. Good business sustaining tactic.
Also fixed my snoopy microblocks. I rmb i used abt 50min for my first cap america. Now i can finish these 2 in 45min. Maybe the dogs are easier. Joe cool.
Fixed the jigsaw bought from taiwan some time back also. I think it is a great modification to the normal paper based jigsaw. This is plastic and wont tear even if u keep breaking and fixing it. It can connect up one after another too, make pple buy more to get full set. Good business sustaining tactic.