Greatest lesson and turning pt is the time when my parents divorced and my dearest grandma left the world. I have lived with no regrets when i started to place family above fun and convenience and when i realise that for some pple, ur presence counts even if i will not or did not do much to contribute to undo unhappy encounters.
Did an interesting card game. What i like vs what i think i do well. Overlap is supposed to be relevant skills. The red ones.
I need to remove my time constraints and i need to grow and contribute back. I need fulfil these needs in order not to live with regrets. What have i learnt. Read in btw the lines? More goal oriented? Spending time on unnec things, or things that do not matter to me like slides and taking grp photo. Wayang vs doing sincerely. These r double edged. Can be good and bad. U need to plan ahead, for others, create opportunities. U need to serve customers' customers, not jus the customers. Teamwork is even more impt than i thot, sense of belonging too.without this:- If the result is positive, im expecting it to be, if negative, i will jus shrug it off, what have we been doing, in the end also like tat. V negative.
My sense of responsbility used to make me less lepak. But that is depleting, if i can not do them, even i know i shld be, i am creating distance frm myself so that i dun need to do it. Tats skiving. The drive is lost. I need to search for it back.
Actually when i was told that im seeking for other forms of gratification cos ive attained a comfortable lvl of gold. I beg to differ. Im still in debt. I wish i can be debt free and able to give more but i cant cos i have limited resources. But then this is again the result. If i have to suffer in unhappiness and live these years with regret, jus for that bag of gold, id rather put a stop to it. Now. Yes i wont starve, so yes ive the option to let go some gold. If i were to starve, will i let go seeking for other forms of gratification? Probably i will. Shrugs, some will not bow down to lowly means of getting gold, i wont consider my situation as lowly means. Like im not stealing, i jus need to sacrifice for food, for pple ard me whom i need to feed. Im lucky not to get into this stage. So i still have a choice. I shld be and will be making wise choices using the education im provided for and some intelligence that im lucky to have.
Im building on having more positive relationships, to influence and touch more hearts positively, allowing them to make changes to their lives for a better one at present or in future, regardless of the past. I want to build the ability to articulate, to tell stories. To help as many as i can. In this way, the types of help to be rendered can vary, not jus monetary, which is usually the most difficult to give. I also need to be more adaptable and patience with pple.
