Farewell, 2012

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Nice end to 2012. Amazing that l got motivated to finally clear my office cubicle on time. Yes, I did declare to clear it before xmas.and then , decided that I may not have enough time to do so, thus l gave myself more leeway to amend my declaration publicly that I will do it before the new year.

really a good anecdote.Just listening to someone lamenting at her colleague 's desk condition, which does somehow sound like mine. How effective that is. the chinese proverb with direct translation as "scolding the pagoda tree while pointing at the mulberry tree". She doesnt know abt my desk but I admitted and have attempted to invite her over to clean up for me but was ignored obviously. And so determined, drag my feet over the next day and spend a good 2.5 hrs clearing up. Even the cupboard and pedestal. Tho I somehow lost the interest to continue with the overhead compartment. Pulling down the cover got the job done tho. Oh and oops sry that my poor pal has to shift my shoes a little under the desk for a finishing touch. I bet nobody else notice the footwear la.

And next got the new toy which I've decided long ago. Not difficult with this shopping item. Tho still with complaints abt this jelly bean. I shall try to explore and maximise its functions as a good personal assistant. I still need it despite its shortcomings.

A bandaged mind. So having short term memory is as terrible as having an unkempt cubicle? At least they are perceived. Gosh adding more stress to being a better person. For my good I shall try. It is a fine line between remaining as who I am and changing for someone or something. Wonder how long it will last. Life's easier being who u are. Just treasure and be grateful for those who accept u for who u r. Perception is something that is tiring to manage. As long as it doesnt compromise over smth else.....sighz...i know it does tho. I think there are more feeling type of pple so got to take care of them abit.

Strike me smth else earlier on too. Competition. Ive stepped out of it for a long time. Prior to that I guess I was much more competitive. More achieving. Most of time, pple realised that there is no pt in chasing after so many things when they are older. There are nany other things which are worth more effort and focus. Did I age faster? Gosh. Or maybe it is the gen y thing. Quitters, some had stereotyped. Of cos not true! Jus dont bother to compete. U can race ahead if u want to. Without a competitor, it is no fun racing anyway. it is the process not the outcome. U observed alot more things along the way when u focus less on reaching the finishing the line. But if u reached it first, it is a bonus.

However, probably competition gives the drive and motivation. A more hectic but enriching life. As compared to a more at-ur-own-pace, medal-less life. probably I will choose to try another model. Race together with ur counterparts, against ur own target and time. Not with others. That I can balance betw achieving and smelling the roses by the roadside. N the bonus outcome would be shared joy. Better than holding up the medal without pple clapping ard u.

N here goes 2012 soon. The first countdown which I still recall is the millenium year. N now 12 years have passed since that. As we march into 2013, wish everyone great health and well being above all wishes throughout another fulfiling year. Changed happiness to well being with the latter being defined as the having more positive emotions than negative ones. U cant be having happiness only as which is no longer termed without the other emotions to contrast against anyway.

Welcome to our lives in 2013!

Is it game over or is it not

20 dec 2012. 20122012. The last to happen, no 13th month, sounds v phantom. Thus aws used to sound phantom to me.

Then comes 21 dec 2012. The Maya's prophecy of apocalypse. Aint it jus that their calender ends, then the cycle repeats itself or jus time to make a new calender? Nasa scientists have more work to do probably. Gives pple a common topic to rave abt and the preppers a reason to celebrate when the prophecy fails. those who draw their last breath on d-day, it is indeed the end of one's world. Perception isnt it? Spiritually, emotionally or physically. End of one is the beginning of another anyway.

Dark clouds loom over the sky for most days of the month. Rainy season. Temperature dipped. A week ago, went strolling in the drizzle with dad. Botanist spotting plants. Mango, jackfruit, durian, and then a string of scientific names in chinese tho. Spotting camouflaged insects and birds, knowing that they are there after rain. Sugoi.

Why werent we taught in sch? Basic isnt it, prior to studying xylem and phloem. Gg micro without knowledge of identifying plants in real life by their leaves and flowers. If i wasnt in pri sch science club for a year, i wouldnt have known ixora, allamanda, oleander, spider lily, birds of paradise n the different types of ferns on rain trees n angsana trees. Cat tail, lotus and lily in the pond. Limited. All within the sch compound. But thats the only hands on. Text book pictures do not show the full picture.

Haha and then comment abt why didnt the officials plant more flowers, as there r mostly trees only, and no sculptures like gardens in europe. It is sg and not exactly a garden lo. They shld have more lasting metal plates with the plant names both english and chinese installed. The prints were fading and almost illegible alr. Great energy for a man his age.

We get a wkend before xmas eve and actual xmas day. Liven up the atmosphere with blinking lights and merry xmas classic songs. The tree in office is really pretty, kudos to those who decorate it. Even the office gift exchange occupy us for one of the lunches. Really do not understand the presentation part. Why cant we informed of our nos and then rush to get the xmas presents under the tree? Might have some logic behind but it really isnt explicit. Really cant understand. Then the following wk repeats with a new yr's eve and the new yr's day. Yay!

Prep for xmas and jus make a simple wish for a silent and peaceful night.

It is not so easy to be consistent

Consistently refreshed. Getaways and wkend outings form short recharges but u know it doesnt really work once u landed back in the heap of xxxx. The target recharging power should be done during the daily lives.

When u r too tired, do u think of the reasons? How then can i avoid being so tired?

Morning found paw prints and dung! Urgh. Infer. Cat. Crap. So lucky didnt pounce on my bed when im slping. I would have died last night. Investigating where does it come from, some windows left opened? Whose cat? How can a pet cat enter another's house? Urgh the thot of a cat in the house is spine chilling. Could this be the reason of being drained today? But the thots only bothered me before work. After that i was occupied wat. Bad start probably.

Realise interest. Really a major trait for entps. If there is interest, no problems at all. Easy peasy. Auto pilot. It will be carried out and fulfilled.

When there is none, alot of resistance. Why mus it be done? Then when one searches for reasons to convince oneself to do it, alot of energy has been zapped. Balance is needed to counter this. Not to bother arguing.

Shld convert boredom to interest. Gosh boredom and impatience are the archilles heel. Impedance. Amazing! Struck me when someone mentioned today with wide eyes! Huh long? It has only been 30 secs confirm less than 1 min. I was like really?! Shucks. Gets worse when im in a hurry. Hectic and bustling, flustered and exhausted. But seriously why the need to hurry? Take it easy and pace oneself.

Contradicting. Hamburgered. Pacing means taking a longer time to complete. Draggy. Obviously tired! Prolonged suffering.

frowning for sure, physical fatigue from the facial muscles. Watched pple use computers for abt 10 min today. Observed their facial expressions. how their facial muscles work. Learning.

Ah working the cerebrum. sometimes Not Everything needs to make sense isnt it. I realise i talk to myself alot with the mind. Soliloquizing in silence. No wonder so tired. Zip zip. Not the mouth but the mind. jus need the 5 senses during observations. Pick up. Imitate. Does that require talking to oneself. Jus passive copying wat. Cant. I talk the most when studying pictures. Indeed pictures speak more than a thousand words. Metaphorically? No. Literally. If not 10,000 words.

Thus tsukareda. Sighz. At least a step to realisation for lasting longer along a winding path with limited time and energy.

Not so easy to be consistent? Tired or refreshed.

Rummaging thru the bits of life

In a cab. Amazing! He decorated his cab. Except for the heaps of tissue papers at the coner of the right hand side of the windscreen which i do not term them as decorations. Sunflowers and a liverpool decal. Playing retro 80s or 90s cantonese songs. This uncle seems v settled in his cab, while he is on the road most of the time probably. Omoshiroi. To the temple.

Dearest grandma, wonder how have u been doing for the past 8 years. Strangely, my memory of the night when i was violently shaken awake but regreted for the lack of courage to open my eyes, and the dream of u smiling warmly at me when i was queueing, for what i dunno, remains fresh and vivid. Jus like yesterday. Images of u smiling shyly and shaking ur head in response to my whys then finally mumbled "ah ma buay hiau", patting on my head gently. Hee i will run away seeking answers then come back and tell u abt it. But i dont know how much u understood me. I was struggling with hokkien. And for us, u picked up mandarin. Grandma is one figure whose presence and smile as acknowledgement is everything that is required. I really missed u. Wonder what would it be like if u are around at this age. Are u really aware when all of us visited the temple. What are doing now exactly? Did u manage to meet up with gramps?

Day out with pops. Always interesting to listen to him commenting on things he observes. He has an inventive mind. He is amazed at how far i can cycle. But im amazed at his energy level in walking. By dinner time, i was super slpy alr. Somemore i had an extra period of rest staring out at the river while he toured the cloud dome with my bro n gf. Then we went over to barage to fly kites. Haha so cute, he was enjoying the sense of achievement bringing it high up into the sky. I told my bro, pros dun nid to run. Then he really nv run. Haha. So easier for me to capture him on photos. Classic shots. N first time, string broke. Went ard searching. Luckily caught the cleaner in the act of clearing it! Retrieved back. Some repair work required.

Phone calls, emails, texts. Feel sorry to disturb pple on wkends also. Ransacking brains and fumbling for interims, minimising ops disruption and containing issues. Supporting and facilitating, avoiding being the bottleneck. Ops. The life of ops is back after 1 yr plus. Transition period tho. Hajime of ops.

Randomly, totally believed my colleague when he texted:

I cry in my sleep everynight and wake up from nightmares that the mouse came alive when I was using it.... Also, every morning I would have a nervous breakdown for almost 15 mins and lament on my poor and sorry fate at CAG. Then I will go to work and pretend everything is fine when it is not. Sometimes I will go to the toilet and punch the flushing system out of frustration and that was only the first year....

Nv doubted it at all until he admitted. Gosh. Talking abt gullible. I re-read it after him owning up. Why on earth did i believe that in the first place?! Doesnt feel cheated for sympathising. Haha. Actually my first thot was wa so cham and wouldnt that be considered as vandalising? spoiling toilet flush? Farnie. Interesting pple are what make working life fun. Cynical humour, but c'mon shld be embracing it. and really shld it is commendable of him for such creative and imaginative thots!

My quote: life without problems is boring. My belief. Sadistic to some.

Drizzle after the torrential

Watching the wipers sweeping left and right as the rain drops falling lightly on the windscreen. Pitter patter pitter patter. When was the last time since i watched the rain falling from the overcast sky onto the solid glass panes? a familiar stoning activity. The time jus seems to come to a standstill. For that short stay in the vehicle. The backdrop is a nice new building. Usual admiration for nice architecture , otherwise would have probably find certain countries less interesting. It is the rainy season again.

Wedding dinners. Catching ups are always refreshing. Descriptions of one another's encounters and happenings. Relating events which u probably wont reminiscise with the usual grp u hang out with, at least not so frequently probably. of cos i cant eliminate the fact of some's preference over repeating multiple times for different grps of audience.

Mbs' really the ambience is at the convention centre and not the hotel. So each hall was taking an event each. Gd business. Swissotel fairmont really blew it. ill preparation. My fren lost patience totally. A few of us were jus self servicing and really give the poor servers a break. The manager is to blame. They dont seem to be exactly understaffed. Jus dunno their own roles. Fun observing them. How can serve dishes without the common fork and spoon and worse the soup without spoons for all the guests? And another dish without issuing plates. Then another stacking the new plates onto the used plates with leftover crumbs from the previous dish. The bride is a perfectionist, really if she gets to know, they are so gg to get an earful. Gd luck to them. Haha knowing her, surprised that the groom mentioned her traits in his speech openly! Tolerance and being adaptable are really his strengths. Not sarcasm. Jus reality. It has been so many years anyway.

Another fren was mentioning abt accepting wedding invitations the other day. Strange, really nv occur to me before. Despite the pref of not attending any of such, i'll still turn up if im available. Got to miss it if im overseas. Then another discussion on who to invite when u r the host. I was quite surprised at how the pple r chosen. Gosh. Matter of fact probably but still relatively harsh. as in handling such events so pragmatically. Urgh. Somehow, lack of humanity and sincerity. Really will not go thru all these. Somemore got to act social butterflies for that day, wearing frozen smiles. So might as well spare the guests who do not prefer attending such events anyway. I shall treasure the choice and freedom that i have as i know some couples are jus fulfilling parents' wishes of holding a banquet. Wat weird wishes tho.

Another corporate cluster event. Not bad a place really. Finally got to see it after hearing stories at sembawang airbase which is nearby. Morning activity, they actually got an app with more than 100 questions. With tasks ard the country club and google really remain the best pal. M1 network is also significantly faster than the rest, probably with fewer subscribers. Afternoon project runway. Agree that thru this, we saw how creative pple can be. Beyond expectations. U come to realise how much the teams can actually achieve. Some scripts are really superbly entertaining. Hilarious. And we took the lunch away from the crowd, watching the rain forming ripples in the swimming pool. We all got different coloured wristbands and when we show the photo, how gay can janet be? She can guess whose hands are those all correctly! 100%. Unbelievable. Seriously, who observes pple's hands?!

Nice restaurant with a nice name. Yes 2D1N. Has raised many eyebrows. Those first time hearing it was like huh? Staying over at sembawang? Really it was jus dinner after the event. Nice food. Korean kimchi, rice cake and the sweet tasting rice drink were yummy. But feel trapped and overdose of bbq smoke after 2 hrs. Choking. Overpowering. Smells like bbq from head to toes. Still want to hang ard? I really jus want to jump into a pool of foam. And as always, the best time of bbq buffet, make it seem like we are not wasting food. Missed those sec sch thrills. No potted plants this time tho. Am
surprised none at the table did that before! Mus be something wrong with my sch and my bro's sch. How well we relate those times. I think the restaurants are more relaxed on those rules after our era. Who wants to do the cleaning up later? Will really be amazed if no teens do that anymore. Then we were really rather incorrigible. Shucks. Now is mild and we shld.

Under the casuarina

Comes from "under the mistletoe". Almost xmas again. It's end of another year n counting down of another new year. So what have i done or how have i lived for the past year? Not everything has an answer, frens have told me. Being inquisitive is both a strength and weakness. Cos it gives stress to pple who cant answer my queries n yet im demanding for one.

What a great saturday, despite the exhausting work week. N so i actually stressed myself too. Time to reconsider n stop myself frm being too inquisitive n curbing some freedom of speech. Today, realised that i nv ate long john silver's bfast before! To think i was still laughing at my fren who nv eat delifrance before the other day. Not too late to dawn upon me that i cannot luff at pple. Actually i wasnt mocking at all. Jus amazed. I jus show too much of my emotions, too elaborated. It was like the the amazement is amplified n pple wonder why. So amazing meh?

N i finally tried my hammock. Sugoi. It is really a super shiok feeling. Gg thru the process of reaching the shiokness. Thanks to my dear fren who got it for me. Started with hunting for trees that are nicely spaced apart. The first pair was too far away tho. The second pair of trees n i got it. Not too bad huh, my estimation. Next tried tying. While cycling here, i was alr digging into my memories on how i tied the rope obstacles during sch days. Clove hitches and 2 upward half hitches. Not entirely certain. Forgot most of these rope tying stuff alr. Aiya jus try later, enuff of thinking thru it, waste of brain power. sometimes gg thru in the mind first enables me to deal with it better and faster later. But really doesnt apply everytime. Pressing it down hard , wonder if the tree bark n the nylon knot can take my weight. Need to burn the ends to prevent fraying tho. Damn, forgot abt it. Then i sat on it with 2 legs on one side, gently, still keeping most of the weight on the toes. Looking left and right at the knots, asking them in my head if they r ok before i sat back more. Looks good. Lifting one leg over the side, chk the knots again. Then finally slip my feet out of my slippers and lie back. Last chk on the knot behind and in front of me. Ahhhhhh. Wonderful. Chked the distance from the grd, well, even if it doesnt hold my weight, jus a little hit on the ground. Safe.

The casuarina foliage above shading me from most of the sunlight. Some rays got thru but not warm. I am lucky with the cloudy skies too. Cooling. The waves splashing onto the entire stretch of beach creates the surround sound effect still. The water glistening in the sunlight n now with my transition lens, the blinding effect is minimised. The ground is littered with the little fruits n brown leaf strands n the grains of white sand. Not yellow. I always think that the composition of the grd under the casuarina trees is different. But could be an illusion cos of the fallen "leaves" n fruits. The leaves are really jus strands. With the hammock being the netted type, my back felt cooled as the sea breeze blows. Such great feeling. My bike looks like it is having a good rest in the shade too.

Definitely dolce far niente. The italian quote used in EPL(which i seriously dont mean english premier league. Sigh). The italian quote means carefree idleness, the sweetness of doing nothing. What the italian enjoy unlike the americans, that's what the book advocates. Really i can stay here all day. With the slight oscillation everytime i fidget can make me doze off in the gentle breeze n sound of waves.

Where would u epl? Italy, india and bali is for the author. He says sg, nepal n sg. Urgh. Where do u like sg so much? I would choose japan, england and norway. Done the first 2, not the last. C'mon some novelty. Where would u cycle, stroll and stone? I would say australia (more of mountain biking tho), switzerland and ... Hmm anywhere! Prolly sg would fit in here then.
What's ur word. He says gullible!!! Oh my!! Since when?! Refused it, new word. I say defiant. Ok agreed. His word would be slowcoach? rubbish? Adaptable. No! Ok finally agreed with pragmatic. Mindless quibbling. But jus for the fun of it. Pulling the plug there then.

Extraverted intuition with introverted thinking

 

The Visionary. Inspired innovators, motivated to find new solutions to intellectually challenging problems.They are curious and clever, and seek to comprehend the people, systems, and principles that surround them. 

They prefer to approach tasks in a casual and unstructured way, with few limitations on their ingenuity. They question norms and often ignore them altogether. Established procedures are uninspiring to the Visionary, who would much rather try a new method (or two) than go along with the standard.ENTPs enjoy engaging others in debate, and can be perceived as argumentative due to their love of critical analysis. They get bored very quickly when required to repeat a task or attend to details.

They typically need a partner who is emotionally resilient and doesn't take offense at their intellectual challenges. They are also highly analytical and will not hesitate to criticize ideas that don’t hold up to their logical analysis. ENTPs can be hard to keep up with in conversation; they like to play with lots of complex ideas and have little patience for explaining details. 

Despite this, reading INTP, I'm quite close to that as well. Anyway, it is more interesting in knowing your frens and co-workers. That reasons why they behave in certain preferred manner and allows myself to be more accommodating. 

Interestingly, also watched the late Dr Richard Teo's speech on thoughts of life, wealth, success and happiness. It is then that he realises that showing off his success to others' brings nobody happiness, especially when there are many others who are trying to make ends meet. I'm indeed impressed by how he overcomes his depression and have this courage and energy to give speeches. The news totally caught him by surprise and it just have to be at the pinnacle of his life. the higher one climbs, the harder one will fall. Also reminds me witnessing at how a mtg was conducted with repeated explanations on the same point, attempted thru different methods, countering different perspectives patiently, tho arriving at the same point at the end of the hr or more. and at the end, time wasnt found wasted cos it has been decided right at the start that time will be spent educating. This would explain why there isnt frustrating but only patience. The objective is not just to arrive at a conclusion for the issue.

Watched this film which is based on a true story. 18 years. Incredible. Extraordinary. For both brother and sister, life in jail due to a wrongful conviction and life in society going thru hard times to prove her brother's innocence. It then occurs to me that it is indeed spine-chilling to have the death penalty in the Singapore's law. Imagine if it is a wrongful conviction! Irreversible. If not for Massachusetts' law, there wouldnt be any chance at all, tho it is ridiculous that the culprit is immune and the actual perpetrator not found.

One states the numbness of the medical practitioners and the other, the attorneys in handling cases for clients. the job vs morality. These 2, tho top earning industries, tho what every parent wishes their kids to be aspiring towards are what I've despised since sch days. Adding to these, the education industry too. The selection process may have dropped the real doctors, lawyers and educators. Imagine if the sister didnt manage to pass her exams, since she was in probation for doing badly in classes, i bet she would retake it till she passed, but that would also mean a longer rotting time in jail for her bro. No other attorneys are helping the innocent convict. Cosmetic surgeons are also exploiting the patients for unnecessary treatments or alterations; educators going thru motions for the pay check or just serving themselves for the thesis and whitepapers to be published. The real ones are only in dramas or I do still believe in teams which are working for causes, fortunately there are considerably many globally, tho not enough.

Extroverted intuition with introverted thinking. Suspecting the swap in either being the core and the other the auxiliary at different times or in various situations.

Caught on camera(s)

dare. passion. memories. learn. those who are wandering doesnt necessarily mean they are lost.

still like to capture interesting items....

love to capture the ambience and scenes that re-generate the feeling....

after losing the europe trips photos, you know you can always revisit the place but not necessarily able to have back the same companions who leave footprints in this trip....

and when you start to scroll through what was captured on the five different cameras....

we still managed to have many "ALL IN" photos as well, either from....

...enlisting the help from kind souls,....

,...self taken big head shots....

.....or using the timer of the camera when timing is important.....

Byoki no nezumi

K.O.-ed. Bug attack. Taking a longer time than I expected also. Tue afternoon, sudden change of voice - deep "sexy" voice. and one colleague had to tell me that I initiate conversation when i have bad voice. do i? u mean normally I was unfrenly? anyway i initiate cos of work leh, thot injected some rubbish probably..haha. ok maybe i am lazy to make small talks la..anti social ma....Wed Morning, sore throat. Wed Afternoon, shivering. Wed night, fever. Thurs, total loss of voice. Fri, croaky voice. Fri night fully hit by headache, cold and cough. Really tiring to cough. Avoided meeting anyone so that I can cough without covering my mouth, else holding it back jus tickles my throat more. and also prays hard that nobody in office catches the bug. else I really will become the culprit. now that with severe coughing, germs confirm spread, so will definitely be absent to be more socially responsible.

Stupid throat, everyone at the 3-hr mtg on thurs morning, thought it will recover on fri, we are all quite sure of it. Must be protesting cos I whispered too much on thurs despite loss of voice. "cant talk still want to talk," mocking me silently, "not gg to let u recover on fri". Knowing this, I really vowed not to talk on friday, alr pre-empt my colleague to be the voice. One, good trng for her, two, good trng for me to listen more too.

But i failed. Miserable. still tortured others' ears with the croaky voice now that I dont need to whisper. Seriously, can i not talk and just let things happen for once? cant stop the urge to point things out though, first by a meeting which alr exceeds its slot, worse, not even knowing its agenda at all at the start. Just got to share wat i already know instead of watching it, of cos hoping to end it soon so that will not be too late for the next mtg. Then to the next, really have requested my colleague to present and update all until I backside itchy went to raise an architectural issue which results in more discussion. just when my colleague told me in the morning, "good that you dont have voice, the meeting can end earlier". Sorry, i did it again.

So throat refuses to recover on Sat, giving me additional cold, cough and headache. Cough till the thot of "will i kenna pneumonia?" flashed across. must be getting back at me for the curry chicken. Germ-infested room. recalled that I read this comment: "brain is fried and the body is like swimming in a jelly-like liquid." was still wondering what kind of feeling is that? probably I will know when i experience it.
this time somewhere close perhaps.

Opening the windows to a beautiful view of  the pretty sky. such good weather today. really lifted up my mood. time for brute force cycling. time for a nice weekend.

V is for vacation @ Penang

Day 1 - nice quainty boutique hotel. Decor is great, simple. Homely. We got the entire 2nd level of the southern chinese shophouse to ourselves. haven seen a bigger bathroom. The rooms are really spacious too but the bathroom is more jaw dropping. super long walk to gurney drive. But caught beautiful sunset along the shore. Worth the walk. Fried kuay tiao n oyster egg arent fantastic.

Day 2 - kek lor si temple. Grand but one of the halls is ridiculously commercialised with things sold right in the middle of it. The others have separate shops from the halls. Assam laksa for lunch, really not a fan. Im like eating flowers. The taste of the ginger flower is overpowering. Not sour at all. Different taste liking. Next up the Penang hill by funicular. Other than its cooling temperature at the altitude of above 700m and its panaromic city view, there really isnt any other interesting stuff. To the tropical spice garden. Even with the citronella mozzie repellent, got bites from there. Would have gotten more without the repellent probably. Drank a poorly done concoction of lemon grass, ginger, lime honey. really only got the ginger taste. A day with ginger overdosed. watched marley n me at night. Nt the first time watching it. Still find it super nice, bringing the viewers thru happiness, frustration and sadness. the gals were like passing the tissue box around towards the end of the show. I rmbered i teared the first time too.

Day 3 - the blue cheong fatt tze mansion. The place where they filmed the little nonya sg drama series. Posh olden chinese decor with geomancy features and carvings on concaved porcelain n of cos wood. Top 10 unesco site, one of the best conservation project. Then walking trail around george town. Quiet town. Not many shops open even on a saturday! Hop on the free town shuttle which i am really sceptical of it being operated actually. Waited for abt 20min and luckily it came. To komtar, pranglin and 1st avenue, cluster of shopping centres. Nothing fun. Except that im really amazed at my frens' appetite with 3 scoops of baskin robbins icecream each after kenny rogers for dinner. Unbelievable. While it is pouring outside somemore. Really exhausted at the end of the day. Too much walking in flip flops the whole day makes the feet super sore. kenna symptoms of dehydration. Urgh. Concussed. Dear pals helped me do online chk in.

Day 4 - coming to the end of the trip. Woke up and lay on the bed. Felt much much better. Staring at the ceiling fan rotating in the cooling spacious guestroom for the last time. Amazed by their stomachs again. Ate hotel's bfast, went for dim sum, walk a street then went for chendol. I only managed a spoonful of each, while they can stuff those down their oesophagus.

Went back to the hotel to stone abit before the kind hotel staff drove us to the local 7-street hawker centre before heading to the airport. Tried local food like prawn mee, jawa mee, curry mee, kway tiao soup, popiah and some fish dish in malay which i cant rmb the name. Haha airport is like a fugitive restin stop. They went to hoard the entire airport with dust flying all over instead of phasing it. Sighz.

Really enjoyed the 5-pple grp trip cos can try abit of all the food. n the companionship is everything in this heritage town. Love the architecture but not new, jus few sizes bigger than our katong area and ann siang hill. Cab drivers allow us to board mostly by charging a pax more, so yes the bus is actually more comfy and cheaper. Only thing that im super gao wei is the wet toilets. Uber hot weather with cloudless sky. But this makes me appreciate a good bath with a super big shower head at the end of every day. And getting to slump right into the king sized bed with the soft pillows gives a sense of bliss. Hope i can rmb these senses and create them as and when i need them back home.

End of a eat. roam. sleep trip.

Reinventing or reminiscing the life chapter

Dinner@Table Manners. Cool place for the afterwork bunch, and yet avoiding the CBD crowd.

Congrats on the wedding for yh and zs! Zs really look like eurasian in her make up. Lunch at mandarin oriental is yummy! lava cake is superb as dessert. Honestly slightly, only slightly better than smoulders'. had gone to support frens' shop at telok ayer which sells lava cake the wk before, hired chef but they tend the shop themselves on wkends! Wish them flourishing business!
Amazing affinity for the newly weds from mpa though now both have left. Continuing and beginning a new chapter in their life. Good luck to them!

Maf 2012. Half the strength this yr. sparklers play remains the tradition, even with the whistling ones which attract enough attention. Once and it is completed, captured perfectly by the S100 this year. Thinking back times at the nus rooftop, we took hrs. The numbers would play a part in gettin less NGs.and the camera model too perhaps.


Other than the swarming mozzies and flies, not bad a platform built on stilts along the coast, beautified further by the evening sun in the sky and the swishing waves gently carrying the sand up and then backing away from the shore. Words are always inadequate in times of sadness as we come to realise and learn to accept profound loss. Depending on an individual's belief, it is one's perception and attitude towards the reality. How one carries oneself and pulls through such times. Grateful memories survive, the more you recall it, the more painful the images become, somehow the focus and emphasis of these memories differ during such times. If it helps, do accept tlc from those living and those who care without worrying. for some who shun support, I would probably just let them be. i personally value letting pple do what they like more. but u know it isnt always the correct method. thus fortunate to have pals of varying characters, their persistence in keeping company is at times more effectively in preventing others from excessive brooding. now i embrace diverse personalities and no clones anymore.

Taken2 is finally here. thought taken is quite a good show despite comments from critics. for awhile when we touched down at the airport, it was mentioned that we had better get the cab from the airport counter reminds me of the show, where the daughter and fren were taken by the gang who shared a cab with them from the airport. and then the story develops with the dad tracking down the traffickers.

Wkly attention seeking laughter from the little terrors in the park. even my bro was like trying to walk far away from them. but they were genuine and tat's why they are attractive. cutie pies, as long as no fights. read an article on "we smile when we are happy" so can we do it the other way round? "we are happy when we smile". when you are feeling agitated or sad, just stretch your facial muscles and smile and see if you feel happier after that.

 

 

Spa for the calcified structures

Not visiting the pretty therapist anymore. She is only available on mondays. Finally got to see the long heard abt dentist, my fren's sis. All dentists are always cheery, they probably have the onus to make their patients less stressed over having metal structures prying their mouths open.

Got an xray, really jus for fun. No expectation or anything, slight fear of killing some cells tho. But succumbed to the recommendation since i've never done it before. Results are good. And i finally got to know that i actually have one wisdom tooth! Can see from the film, sitting at the top right end, at an angle. So it will never appear unless i start to lose the molars when im old. So dentist said that will save me the trouble of having to get wisdom tooth plucked out. How lucky.

So she proceeded to apply some lip balm, then some numbing gel on the gum and then some metal gently touching the teeth. I shall opt out of numbing gel next time. Makes my lips feel super weird. After some cleaning and scrubbing, got a solution spray, salty! New procedures, not the same as my previous encounters. She wrapped up by showing me the before and after pics of my teeth. Thanks dentist.

It is jus how sep is gg to end

Significant happening in town, wont be too bored with the "over" hyped string of events. Subjective thus within inverted commas.

Whichever comes first.

The warm welcome of the pandas thru the vip complex. I hope there is sufficient homegrown bamboos here.

The duchess is surprisingly influencial, being a fashion icon, free modelling for brand outlets.

The F1 riders' perserverance with the boring glaring route, with applaudable team spirit at the pitstops. And with maroon 5 and the wanted. Will these lead to tourism boost during this period? Why put the events together?

The movie, Cars is really superb. Managed to catch it on scv, and yes finally switching service provider. Tho was still amused by system outage due to thunderstorm and sun outage. Dunno why we are tickled by the kind explanation. Shrugs, cynical us.

Finally got a pair of transition specs for fun. Change is so gradual that hardly feel the difference but frens jus said "v black alr la". Most ex pair so far. The supposed sports frame probably. Let's see if it is ruggard. Still haven broken dad's record of a 1k specs. His is jus presbyopia somemore. Sceptical of that buy, mine too, shld have bargained but jus want to get over and done with. Why is shopping a chore to me while a pleasure to some?

Introduced to new interesting app like pinterest and finally logged into my frequently hacked twitter account which i cant be bothered with. And then the longer iphone5 and the bugsful ios and safari6. Irk, i've never read that much forums. Anyway im not a fan and wont considering reading forums casual net surfing which pple usually do. I'll rather do other things than staring at the screen reading. And so enuff bits of info on how it affect app and webpage developers.

Unbelievably after the geeky research, i've to be bugged by math. U know how much i hate probability and really if not for my f maths frens' tutoring, i have no idea how i can pass it. I think too much, they would say. Dice is the first analogy for a probabilty case, which will nv be useful to me as a non gambler. What was the movie? Was it 21? That would be applicable tho.

And then finally with the closin of the budget terminal. Neutral feeling to see it go. Many visits there for work, flying off a couple of times i guess. Worst time scrambling there was for the em locks. And listening to contractors complaining of high ceiling works, always swearing that they will nv want to do projects there again. And pray that no access is required for mtce. A nightmare for ops. Then come the expansion, sighz. And now apparently the building has served its purpose. Well done for the mppa it has handled alr. More headaches now for the land ard it and in preparation for the new baby. Sayonara BT.

自転車と一緒に

Mai asa i step into the train that is waiting along the track. Head towards the middle of 2 carriages. Rest one sole on the ground and the other against the plane 90deg to the ground. Closed my eyes. Picture.

Today's a pale green wall. Violin. A stalk of carnation.

And when i open my eyes. The pple standing around are gone. Gotten off the previous stop.

Neutral picture.
Have been really lazy. Physically. Not mentally. Instead think my brain has been working harder than the rest. Got to distribute the workload with the entire body well.

Interesting chat with pple. Nv met a more positive teacher than him yet. But i do not disagree with he said. Skilfully managed actually. But sometimes how one portray oneself can be very different from what one is. The outer and inner selfs are 2 individuals. Slight correlation maybe but largely different. Mine shld be relatively the same. Thus it is also why im still sceptical about having implicit and explicit goals. Recalled back old times if i did have 2 different set of goals. From the various activists and the different types of pple i've met. Goals are not really hidden. All the intent can be spoken. Even instilling confidence. If the intent is gd, they can be explicit. Unless when u are tryin to stay far away from some irritating person, ur actions may be a result of such implicit goal. Otherwise u will jus smile and minimise contact. Anyway it is subjective, depends on the extent, even negative implicit goal can become explicit. Tats just being straightforward.

And finally transferred the workload from the brain to the legs. Sitting upright on the bicycle seat, letting ur arms fall limply at the sides. All focus is on keeping the symbiotic pair on the few cm-wide white divider line drawn on the tarmac. Realise that 100% focus cant keep u 100% on the line too. The mind is finally blank, with eyes jus straight ahead. The legs got to keep pedaling.

Pattaya for the beach goers and the erhem

The title speaks it all. The most treasured feeling of living the day such that you've too much time for things to do. The pace is slowed drastically. Jus need to kick off my slippers and take a walk, with bare feet. Feeling the sensation of the sand grains against the worn soles. Strolling along the shore with the surround-sound waves splashing and watching them retreating back into the sea. Slumped onto a beach chair with the sun rays falling softly onto the face, hoping to get a little tan. The thai songs playing behind us along the main roads, the water glittered like crystals and the sun slowly setting behind the horizon.

Other daily affairs include bunking in the the nice hotel room, wifi-ing in the lobby while feeding mozzies. Looking for food in our frequently patronised shopping mall n also where we caught the over 2-hour long 'the dark knight rises'. Great show. Their theatre is commendable. The seat backing is tilted at the angle, flexible n bouncy. Visited an extremely cool japanese restaurant with a robot which dances to the music. Uber entertaining. Tried the roadside stall you tiao and egg with luk chiong and fishcake. The porridge is too soggy for my liking. The coffee is yummilicious! Also tasted the green curry and tom yam soup in another restuarant. The rest of the streets are low overhanging cables, public transport, pasar malam, which is actually not bad, at least the frequency of repetition of stuff on sale is lower. Different things on sale. Some stalls are purely second hand goods, or dunno how many hands alr. And then everywhere is red light district. Guessed those ang mohs we saw are german, paired with the locals. Our dear fren refused to go and ask how much. Happy to be on this trip with great company, otherwise not suited for the most prevalent entertainment here. Had numerous good luffs for the combination of idiosyncracies.

Tho we did consider options. Didnt go out on day trips cos atv and 3 km of flying fox are deemed too adventurous for our dear pal. Even renting motorbikes is. So well... No kayaks or canoes ard. Parasailing is too boring and jetski is not worth the money. Probably buying one back is more worth it, if we are allowed at east coast and there is a place to repair in case of breakdowns in sg. Only horseback riding is available, no horseback galloping. Tiffany shows dont look fun, sigh so probably we are the picky ones.

にじゅうはちさい

If the pics are beautiful, the warmth received is magnificent. Pressies are pleasant surprises but honestly, n only hard truths, can do without. Im thinking of all of you as i write this. The thoughts are everything. The wishes are valuable and the company is priceless. Sincere thanks n with beyond-words-to-describe appreciation to all who had made my day. Feeling guilty of not being return the level of happiness that i've gained. I will see to it, now with my new resolution. Was wondering what resolution did i make early this yr... Anyway superceded by not being so sianz. Or rather, as pointed out, it shld be more positive n energised in life. Then prolly i'll make effort in whatever i do happily.

12 jul. Lucky. Everything falls in place automatically.

14 jul. Trapped. Not good. Going in circles.

18 jul. Something is amiss. Something is wrong. Disoriented. Adrift. Compartmentalisation isnt functioning too well. What is it that causes this state?

The 2nd judgement

Stealing a glance off the grp chat : ps cafe at 730 n it was registered in the mind. And only when i got off at ps, it is supposed to be at palais renaissance in orchard. Didnt even know this building existed. Sighz. Nice ambience but costly.

Where would offer jobs which are more results oriented rather than process oriented? So trapped. N indeed difference is with the attitude. 心态是关键。空杯心、感恩心、谦虚心、自信心、老板心、给予心、坚持心和充电心。 唯有责任心是不够的。

Akin to the ny central park, ours isnt too bad too except for the weather. Themed n the canopy is more sparse tho.

Summer time and welcome back home, my dear bro. After we last met in oct 2011.

My dear wives