Sigh. Totally in a complainy mode. It is so.....urgh....the adjectives that pop in my head are all abbreviated, means not good to say in full.
Tough day, brain fag. As always, actually wats new. i really dislike wasting time sitting thru mtgs which really dont require my presence, jus split the work to be handled at different lvls mah else super waste time. They jus decide la. Alr recommend, why soak in others time to debate. As if those who sit in have a vote. Unless these mtgs are self dictated to be of self interest for info to broaden perspectives. The time is really better use for me to clear the tons of work piling on the desk. Alamak, i forgot to go round table sometimes for decision also. Sometimes only some will bother to speak up. There is no neutral platform for all to voice. Culprit!
And as always resistant to changes which r not explained. No reasoning. Being sceptical, will naturally question is this required, r we doing the right thing. Or somehow someone says smth it is jus passed on without much thot. When asked, jus keep referring to this name.
Hate it. Things not thot thru thoroughly, iN pieces, our job to think, fine, but shldnt the additions be frozen. else nv blame for not spotting, cos obviously no time, jus plunging into the water without the goggles, of cos cant see.
Hate also when pple commit on behalf. Either that, or intentionally hide info then they themselves nv think of it, leaving shit behind for others to clear. cos everything is never as it seems. Im a culprit myself thus im wary, promise myself not to overlook. The dependencies are hidden. i can only commit if im the hands and legs, otherwise shld always go back to the hands and legs. Sometimes i jus silently pray that they cant make it on time, like those unforeseen ones which alr happened. Think so easy, do it urself lor. The effort required is nt jus on the surface. We have covered them many times. We have planned and uncovered mines many times luckily most of the time in advance, leaving enuff time. And all these thanks to the levelled up team. Can feel all r starting to think thru questioning. Sugoi. Really applaudable. more gaps are plugged. But still frustrating when qns are left unanswered and when they finally have the ans, wanna rush the execution team again, nights are burnt, and it isnt their fault at all. Jus feel for them, not fair.
More commendable ones, the attitude. V nice pple. Slogging. Helpless. Trying to help another. Relieved to witness this round the table. Tho a couple are like still giving the "thats ur prob" signal from deep down despite the superficial polite words. After complaining abt last min request, sent over some encouraging words. Poor soul, saw him flattened lips during the mtg, bo bian. amused but empathetic. Not his fault, the coordination is pull hair. some crazy team, condemned forever to the dungeon. Nv once in our whole life, a non hiccupped execution.
Worse of all, pple can still make comments like the pyramid has been inverted. It is a thick column, strong and supporting pillar. Tht is what makes everything works. I swear if this comment is ever made in front of me again, im gg to retaliate. unbelievable. Deeply engraved in my mind. Crap.
Jus like wat bro said, his boss says till machiam like he is gg bali to enjoy. Seriously if bosses think gg on work trips are enjoyable and that they shld be thanked instead for the opportunity, think again. I shall say no more. This is like the column vs pyramid theory. These are the traps that when u become the mgmt, u shld nv fall in. Thats old sch and outdated thinking. They have failed to see from another perspective. u will nv reach an effective team if u cant work with the younger gen.
Ive known too many backstage workers. Ironically, they r the good ones and those who make things happen. Cos they save the time from all the creations for wayanging. Challenge is how to surface all these pple into view. I will broadcast as many names, those who r involved, as possible whenever i have the chance.
Realised it is also the last day of the lunar seventh month with unburnt joss papers and the ashes alongside the roads.
I will definitely feel the loss without my dear partner next next wk. Gd luck to me.
Hope my dear pal not suffering too unbearably overseas pls. Will pray for ur well being and safety.
So nice and rewarding to gulp down cold almond soya bean milk.! Tmr is another day, another destiny, which i shall dictate.
