Who am i at 30?

The last time i gave some thought to was when i was 25. What was i doing then 2 years after graduation? Well...vaguely, i recalled some aspirations, some targets. The focus and goals are different now. The time being 5 years later from then. Argh the most dreaded big 3. The social norm depicts that u ought to have achieved by 30, some aim to be a millionaire by this age, some wants to migrate by this age, some target to get married and the list goes on, differing interests and life paths. It is jus a milestone for pple who give some thot to life. Shrugs. Of cos it isnt bad if u haven nt even considered this at all, some are more carefree and more adaptable without a sketched patch to take ahead of u.

So i went to nus ucc again, 7 yrs later. For my bro's commencement this time. Robes with pink stripes instead of my yellow's. Got a little interested and entertained by the 3 speeches. 2 valedictorians in their cohort this time and a guest-of-honour, the leader of the 6-women team who conquered mt everest. They trained by 5 years with the common goal of accomplishing the mission, and went against all who dont provide support including the media who ridiculed with the headlines of "why search for the death path". Amazed. They did well with their speeches really, tho have reached the stage of making me feel motivated. It prolly takes a lot more to pump myself up now.

When u read widely, when u travel far, when u watch others, when u get involved in conversations, when u experience first hand, when u piece all these up, im grateful that this jigsaw presented my life thus far. 

We only have so much time in our lives. Wasting it on pointless things is a quick way to wind up middle-aged and regretting life. If something doesnt have a purpose, get rid of it. This is the concept of minimalism as well. Accomplish the most out of as little as possible. To change this innate mindset is almost impossible, how can i ride along the wave and be unproductive? Exactly why pple loathe this and yet ironically, nobody changes it! Jus live along, are their flames extinguished? No more desire of doing what is right, no more drive and motivation to fight for not just oneself but for all who share the same sentiments. Pple have reached the stage of either no time to do so, or jus dont bother. Dont waste effort creating new waves in the opposite direction which could prolly uncover another island, for opportunities, note, not a can of worms. It may cause a tsunami instead and drown the exsting island, but no risk no gain. Exactly why things dont change, when the majority gives up trying. Disastrous already, who is afraid of another tsunami anyway? But prolly, they are protecting themselves, a way to manage their emotions before they erupt, the more it is said, the more pekcek one becomes, thus might as well dont start at all. Are pple hindering themselves, or are they being constrained by external factors.

And what i wonder is why are there cases, when it is natural that pple stand together? At what stage will it then cause this revolution? Time and space again. Crap cant this time and space be created? When do pple need to wait for this to align? When pple said this, it is jus an excuse. If one put in effort to orchestrate, the alignment will jus be created. 

Actually detours and failures or rejections are different from being outcome independent. The outcome is still there but one doesnt mind the obstacles, accept these, treat them as learning pts and move on, still towards the same focused outcome. Yes we can treat these obstacles as adventures and not wasting time, sometimes grateful that we took the longer paths so that we experience more than the shorter straightforward path. However, this is on top of 2 conditions, one is that it is meaningful, two is we have tried our best. Otherwise, it is unproductive. The last scenario is deliberate failure. If this is intended and make known at the start then the choices of the shoes u wear to conquer that path will be made right at the beginning. Tats a different strategy altogether. Recall planning the underdog for the  team event. It is designed and planned for, and how much takeaways both teams take away at the end. The choices and actions taken are v different, tho with the same end in mind. Im glad we did that exercise, an eye-opener indeed.

It is the fav mth of the yr and yet so lazy to pen down thots. Or maybe it is better cos im staying away from these electronic devices more, while enjoying what is happening in the real surroundings. I miss camping. Under the vast sky.