Personally i have clocked 10 symptoms out of the list. Bad enough? Dont know, as the situation seems to be exacerbating, i should do smth to address or correct it before it all becomes too late? Now question is what shld i do? Considered a few courses of actions, now is deciding which path to take and what i hate is what hinders me from doing the things i want now and really there is no guarantee at the end of the decided course. So shld i still do it, i wont know if i dont try.
While i avoid complaining consciously, and hate to admit or reveal how weak i am, the situation has surpassed what i can hide from others. I will be asked why i flinch all of a sudden.
Cant exactly rmb when did i start, prolly 2-3 yrs? The shoulders started to keep experiencing pain, occasionally it will spread to the neck and causes headache, and there was a period when i consciously tried to stay away from panadols to avoid over reliance. Paased that stage. Then a phase of frequent colds, to a pt that pple pointed it out! I will be surprised as i was and supposed to be fit and healthy, as compared to sch mates, my physical abilities have given me the "glory" which din realise that i have been taking it for granted till now. I have suspected the cause to be stress from the readings and the consultations i went to, of cos, i dun have the patience to make regular visits to a particular one, as i was sceptical and rule them as jus being money faced. Seriously, why would it be of their interest to cure a patient, since they can earn more from returning visits, on top of the good reputation they have from spread of mouths. The medical practitioners mus have a true golden heart to cure patients fast. So tried from various tcms, to normal gps, to chiropractors etc, to complain abt stiff neck and shoulders and headaches mainly.
Recently has been a very strange phenomenon. Started to have chest pain, over 3 wks or so, it didnt get better. The boundary of the area where the pain is becomes more fuzzy, i cant pin point where it is, it jus grabs the chest, prolly shifted frm a focus point on the right towards the left, cant describe properly too. Amazingly, the chest pain is only there during the wkdays. Tried muscle relaxant prescribed by the doc, once i stop taking, the pain returns. Then during the wkends, the backpain is horrible, 24/7, and thruout the whole back. I used to be relieved to report to the docs that no, i do nt have pain on the upper back, mid back or lower back, jus shoulders and above. Now it is thruout the entire back and it is killing me. Massage and salon pas dont help anymore, chronic. Urghh, i becoem quite frustrated cos i had to endure it thru and pull myself out of bed. Any physical work cause it more pain and the innertia is very high to even get out of bed. Cant the pain jus go away? It is bothersome! Cant walk for long as well, need to sit down...shucks man, fear gripped me when i imagine the time i cant trek , either jus travelling overseas or climbing mountains. No no...it is my second fear after the first fear of becoming blind.
I reckon that these symptoms are due to stress, if it is anything else, i wouldnt know, but really i dont think so. Not hereditary, no medical history etc, so what i map out is the plan to eliminate stress. Instead of going into a panic attack, i shld analyse more logically. All action plans are within my control. Shldnt be lazy and get to doing something. Still contemplating the course of actions but prolly, let me get a full body chk up first, if everything's well, i jus need to work on managing the mind and emotions.
To my close ones, i have it under control, so dont worry, as there is no pt in doing so. Worrying cause ur own health to deteriote and i will have no healthy soul to turn to when i need u. Taking care of urself well reduces my worry, and lets jus take care of ourselves well, before even extending the help to others k? It is the best gift u can give to a fren. There is nothing u can do, except to respond when i ask for it, so jus trust me in getting myself sorted out and repaired. Thanks alot already for sharing the experiences and the advices. Thats all i need.
What a note to do for christmas! Lets celebrate and embrace the joy of giving. Merry christmas to all!
