Thanks to my dear colleagues who volunteered to give me an orchard road tour. Yes i cant get the building names into my head, not to mention the shops or stores within the building. So they explained the orientation to me, even tho yes yes i know it is jus one straight road. But really i thot champ elysees and times square were easier. With good tour guides, eh? It is kinda easy. Tho i kinda give up on the hotels, i think i will only rmb goodwood and pan pac orchard.
So tampopo is at taka basement, above soso standard prolly, not uber fantastic. Arteastique at mandarin gallery, nice place to chill really, tho we were all staring at our devices playing "psyched". Tats my pomelo tea. The cookies that come along are spicy! Yummilicious.
Hmm i do not have separation anxiety but still lack of playmate. It will be 2 wks not one. And haha plle are reminding me of my own wedding anniv, so weird right, like i din even notice. Oops. I will self entertain lor, since m's itinerary is rather packed and the time difference isnt of much help.
And yes i finally made it to uniclique's gathering, so tough for a common slot.. I have to commute here and there and thank goodness for the car, but i guess it has worked too much today. So thats morganfield at suntec, one for one is so worth it. Meaty place tho, i shld be detox-ing.
My colleague also taught me smth on fri. Im really quick. Quick tempered. I opened the door.
"Hey, why did u do that?, anyhow shoot me like tat?"
" huh? What thing?".
"Nvm nvm i talk to u later."
I was pissed alr. I haven even defended myself and i got cut off. I didnt insist to talk now instead of later, cos actually no choice, cos he was in the midst of the convo with another. Actually this is a lucky thing. I told myself, no lets not give the the ans, lets find out wats wrong.
U know sometimes i use "lets", it is as if im really talking to my inner voice. Spooky right.
So i went to read the text again. I keep telling myself, maybe it was the text that caused the misunderstanding. See? I know it is a misunderstanding. And i know i could be the cause. Yet, i was angry. Angry at being maligned. Wat on earth? What did i do? Nothing.
So i zoom in damn big and asked " so which word says that im shooting u ." The bad thing is, my tone still possesses anger. The emotions cant keep up with my reasoning. It remains at its initial state. I know if it were m, he doesnt care abt being maligned. It is like watever u think lor. Why cant i be abit more like tat. So er er...yes really mis read, misinterprete, misunderstanding. When he said goodbye, i jus said bye, not the usual cheerful tone, and yet he apologised. Jus before he stepped out, he said softly, sorry that i mis read. And his face was quite erm, black (not like angry type) or awkward i dunno. I feel bad. It is like it isnt his fault and yet he has the courage to say sorry. Not new, he always stood up for a mistake, even in front of everyone in a meeting. " sorry , it is our oversight, will not do it again." It is like awwwww, we wont blame u. It calms all nerves. Brave and kind. And he says it so calmly, and slowly, making sure all words are heard, not like quickly let it pass with slurred speech. Amicable leh. I want to learn this.
Do i need to be angry so quickly, even tho ive analysed and understood that it is a misunderstanding and i could even be the cause of this whole episode, why did i even get angry? I really wish that my anger emo figure doesnt take over the console so quickly and making me lose control. It is really bad. Cant control emotions. It is really tough to stop right at that moment. I need to be even quicker to take control. Malign malign lor. Say it calmly, if pple dun want to explain and make things clear so be it. I shld jus pace myself. It is a skill of self psycho, self control. So tough. And yes later he also did explain his stress from house reno and wedding. See everyone has different reasons, i really shld be slower.
Life is so hard, not jus becos of these. I also complained abt mtg everyone and being present in the limited time. When i rush, yes i get frustrated. Why is there so much to do? Yes i gotta pace myself. See if im so free, nothing to do, i wish i have more to do to fill up my lobo time right. Else it will be so boring. Actually im quite sure i can do it, ive definitely changed my views and attitude while driving on the road. More controlled, even if there is waiting and horrible drivers out there. Jus ignore them. Dont need to feel angry. Shrugs. They dont even know even if u r angry. And really even if it is for sarcasm, jus say sorry. They prolly wont feel bad, but im sure everyone is glad that the metal sheets did not kiss.
