Connecting...the minds n the hearts

Slightly mind intriguing. Thot provoking. Applaudable achievements beautifully compiled.

The townhall content n the little book of cag. Indeed i love working in changi airport, but i dont love working in cag. Yet. Remaining hopeful, tho i wish to see more, experience more.

The book is well written. Have it been standardised? The style of writing. V presentable, easy to read. Cater for the masses. 

The pioneers of the airport, tho may nt be their sole efforts, they represent the pioneers who had gone thru the right values, the right discipline, the right training. The purpose n passion is for the right cause. It is heart warming to learn that there r such workers ard. Nt for other reasons, nt for the glory. The unsung heroes, admirable spirit which resonates with what i have deep in my heart. Not for wayang, not for visibility, not to fight for due credit. Meritocracy is double edged. Pple r focusing at the wrong areas. For merits not for the actual meaning of their tasks. Yes it is making difference to the pple's lives that matters. U have contributed to the society. That makes work purposeful. Im scared. I fear. I dont want to get entrapped in the rat race of ladder climbing by working for showcasing. N i dont want to start drawing lines, purposely letting balls drop thru the cracks, watching them fall with eyes wide open, cos it is nt my job to n idiots jus took for granted n continue not doing anything since there was precedence. This boundary setting culture is horrifying. One of the write-ups in the book reminded all of this pt. real teamwork. Ive extracted it to be pic of this entry.

The stories shared were good, they bring a message, directly or indirectly. They explained why the tasks were carried out. They were told to do so, so did their leaders explain the why or did they derive the why themselves. Kudos. They shld communicate more of such implicit intent. Good ones. Purposeful ones. Those unethical n irrelevant implicit goals can be left out. The reason on why u embark on this journey or cause shld be one that touch lives. Ceo ended the book well, simply but well written. Thanks the team for publishing this compilation. I only hope it is nt for show pls. I really dont want to start doubting the reasons y they r doing this. This doubt is confirmed influenced by certain pple. Their minds r too corrupted, too much agenda, overly sensitive, too smart for their own good. I need to stay away from these pple. 

There r genuine pple who do things directly related to what they think, want, love to do. It is genuine, one simple track, one reason for the greater benefit for all. How noble. N i want to sincerely believe this. There r pple who r real n true to themselves, to others n to the world. N i only want to be among these. To do my job well, to contribute, to pick up new things, to see the world n to impact knowledge n skills to the younger generations. Not to become one who is so tired of tasks, unable to see the purpose behind the job, to siam all work, to step into the shadows n jus live day by day, to complain n do nothing in contribution, to draw lines n become unhelpful, to do only wat can be seen, to influence others with my low energy lvl n my jaded self. Clarity will help me see n think n feel clearly. I need to act n change as much as possible, to turn negativity into positivity.

Saturday wedding lunch @ four seasons

Congrats to xingyou and melinda. Beautiful and entertaining wedding at four seasons i must say. Nice ambience, food is not bad. String quartet, a photo booth and a live band. And yes the bros help out alot, even better in a farnie way. Some happenings are really quite kok up. But they stay as fun memories. And im impressed by how good their memories are to be able to narrate the finest details. 

Murphy's day

Murphy's law. Today is exceptional. I need to do a mind dump. Even tho im really lazy at typing it out. And tho im alr better after taking a slow bath and then had dinner and watched 30 min of tv, ive more or less mind dumped. I still choose to type in the end. Cos i listed a few wants this morning during the commuting hour, to find back my drive and reinforce my purpose of living the day, including working for 10 hours daily. First i have to know what i want then i can drive my actions towards it.

The day started slow, as usual, my deliberate change since long time back, i dun rush in the morning. I woke up half an hr earlier to laze ard and brush my teeth more slowly. Then took the train from west to east, and had a relaxing bfast with usual bfast kakis and chatted randomly.

Went to the t1e orat mtg, was quite a good one, cos achieved my goal to convey the msg. Jus to highlight that first, IT is working and we clearly know what is happening within our control, second, highlight issues and to find info that we need but we dont know. Chairman got the hint, urgently request for coordination mtg. Exactly! Whose role is it? Why no overseer one? Nobody knows wats happening at the higher level. Everyone is only looking at their own portions, assuming the other portions. Sigh... The result - Go round and round. 

Satisfied, tho it took longer than i expected. It was alright. I handled other issues via emails and texts in the mtg, ocassionally looking up to roughly know abt the orat plans. Detrimental to my brain tho..switching betw topics, fast. As im getting older, im reluctant to multi task, things shld jus queue. One at a time. Cant focus, cant think clearly, or stress. All 3 are negative.

Then cleared some emails and cleared people's queries, aiding others. Then late lunch at bk. Bad diet.

Then t4 orat- cleared. Quite good too. Not wasting time. We brain pooled.

T1e structure, brain stormed and quite good with some progress too. Tho took longer than usual also. Striked a good nego with lst. People shld really be enlightened by now isnt it? Work at the expense of health? I was jus thinking it is easier to manage ambitious staff prolly. Staff who jus want to retire, what can u do to develop and motivate? They have seen the world and know wat u will be thinking back on ur death bed. What are the memorable events? The ability and skill to achieve success in all life's aspects is then deemed to be a real success. Successful in jus one area, okay....

Loll in the end, i didnt complete the blog that night. Got intercepted by work chats. Work chats are another feat i need to make changes to. Have obviously adapted to work chats cos couldnt keep up with emails. But now it is overwhelming again. But it is more instant. It can even send pdf now. Anyhow good for me, that i cant recall much of that frenzy night. But bad for me cos my memory wouldnt be trained to pick up events. Im quite sore over not being able to rmb certain things easily. Quite a struggle to dig, squint and frown. 

I wanna train myself up with better memories actually. So lets see. Ive calender to remind me. So those rushing at desk are a blur. And i really dont like it, it must be unimportant since i cant rmb so why am i still doing it, i know a few pple stepped in to discuss, and i rmb quickly clearing some emails by typing furiously, determined to get it done before the next mtg, so blocking off other distractions. Serious me = scary me. Loll i was told. They really dun dare to come and chit chat. 

Then i went sbd mtg with wch. Not much conclusion. Info not ready.sigh. Then rush to t4, to settle lan integration. Actually im quite lazy to type out what happened. But we managed to organise it tho there is some follow up required for the pple. Perceptions and interpretations. In the end im still glad that we clarified and resolved it. Tats the most impt. Else no pt bringing it up. Really takes 2 hands to clap. The smallest thing also need teamwork. And here's where murphy visits. Everything isnt right, need to rework, delay and then kyo sai to damage control. And so this drags till 10pm. Shag. 

Reflecting points learnt from the proj

At first instance, nothing much. Cos human problem. Things can get worse or better if there is change of team members. Actually no change of people. They arent even team members, they arent any team players at all. Despicable. 

Really thot for 5 min, what could have been done better next time? Erm...

And oh ya. Even newcomer also great-minds-think-alike with us. Jus so difficult to with. Every interaction is practising endurance. Win liao. Epic. Epic fail. I really wonder why and how....

Disappointing yet glad

Really. Disappointed. Pple are bastards who make life difficult for others. Recently, ive no idea why pple keep asking me for help. Becos this so and so, that so and so is so bastard. Im ok to help them, jus wondering why mus these things happen. Some pple jus make comments without intelligence. At the expense of others, consequential to others. Are they even keep track of what they are saying? Did they like say for fun? Where is the honesty and respect for others. Horrible pple. 

Yet glad thhat im doing my best to change it. I dun even bother complaining seriously. I will fight my own battle. To make things better. As much as possible. Giving my best. 

Jus coincidentally, a chat with a fren reminded me of this number 1 person in my blacklist.  Really why are there such pple on earth. Urgh. Appalled. C'mon pple, we need a volunteer. Roll eyes. Cant u jus volunteer urself. I mus say the credit for my best trainee award goes to him. Thanks for being such a contrasting being to make me look good. And also thanks to him, i jus want to make him look bad. Stop talking so much and do it. Even a gal does the tough job of carrying jerry cans. Can u pls. I dun suffer la. I like carrying to train my muscles tho. But yes ive that mindset to make him look bad too. By the way. 

Tho glad that im making my own life better, ultimately, i still need to find a sanctuary. It isnt a place where i can thrive. All bullshit. All talks no action. Things happen. Did nothing. Try to drag time, make pple suffer. Despicable leh. I hope such pple receive their karma. Really nothing can be done to them. The whole world is enduring. Watever. I dont really care. Offend offend lor. Take a look at themselves first into the mirror. Cant u see what is happening and all u did was nothing. Urgh. Pukes. 

The danish mindset of work

http://www.stylist.co.uk/life/living-danishly-how-and-why-to-leave-work-on-time-every-single-day-job-careers-work-life-balance-happiness

Whoa, im almost danish. I started to think that it is really stupid to work overtime. Like c'mon. Whats the gain? But yes seriously, i wan to get the work done, quickly. Efficiently, do less for more. Becos, i dun want to stop another person who is waiting for my work, like an in-line production. Becos i want to get it off my chest, and not to see it again on my to-do list another day. How see the same task again and again. That helps for me not to procrastinate. So yes, overtime means u r inefficient, have poor time mgmt as u cant prioritise, and then nobody is gg to pity u if u sighhh in whatsapp. Wat to do? No choice. Some of the few words which i used to dislike and now hate. Oh purleaseeee.

Sign of commitment vs stupidity. The 2 sch of thots are on the extreme end right. If the boss is of either kind, the staff got to adapt accordingly. Otherwise, the boss better embrace both and assess accordingly, jus different styles and pref. I vote for the danish's of cos.

Get a life outside work. There is so much to jus spending effort and time and well being at one subject in life for the entire 24 hours of that day. No tomorrows. Carpe diem. Everyday has a purpose. So live with one.