Yes through chatting, i discover more abt myself too. Benefits reaped. And obviously they have invested their valuable time too. Glad that i know so many people recently who can have htht with me at the right frequency. And i know the connection is brought by trust, sincerity and honesty. We bare our hearts and thots, so comforting. I know what motivates is to contribute and make a difference, together with like minded pple. Maybe i shld start or join a cause. The power of the want to making things happen, TOGETHER, is the drive to carry things out. If i were to do alone, i may nt last. I will be less happy and feel less achieved. Achieve as in not the outcome but the process. The few examples in my mind are the 3-pple proj in uni with overnight stays and bgss unit creation. Pure team work. Without anyone of us, we would not have experienced the achievement of the process and the outcome.
I also know while i like to go against others, obviously for valid reasons, jus loosely put across, i go against myself too. Yes. I am getting out of my comfort. Who i want to train myself to be is one with a balanced mbti. Like my I and E. yes i am both. This trait is quite clear to me and also especially if i get mixed responses and hesitation from close frens. Im obviously training my T and F. Forcing my priorities to change. R/s more than outcome. I think i can do J. i cant do S for sure, maybe try next next year. Shrugs.
Knowing more and more health cases, i mus push for focus on health, no stupid sacrifices anymore. Not jus for myself but for pple i care. I shall be an advocate for this coming year.
Seriously what do pple gain at the end of all these years? U dun brag abt how much u had done, oh ive set up this system, this new patent, change the way pple maybe but not the former, it is like so what? When we were told when we look back, we had done this much, erm but so? And ya for what? U got the wrong audience if u think we will feel achieved? For doing all these? No. Makes no sense. Pls, we were forced. If we were empowered to handle it , this is not our choice of path. Still, i dun mind gg thru all these at the end, cos it is the team's work at the end, even if they are wrong choices made along the way. The team's strength is that of its weakest link anyway. For this ok. What we have learnt from this, erm if i have a choice, i wont learn like that, nothing much i would say, other than witnessing what shld not be done, yes the negative demonstration. Leaving to other pple leading? Pls see what happens to the app proj also, if not for taking it in our own stride, if not for stepping up, there isnt a 23 feb cos it will be left in the hands of some pple who dun know wat to do, leading the whole team to suffer. What do i learn? U can only depend on urself, regardless of the instruction, counter it. Reflect and identify the learning pt, then applying and pass it down. Tats prolly my motivation. Else so what if i learn that. Like so what for the exposure? Really what can i do with it? Am i gg to do what u think it will be? Ask me. Yes ask myself.
